the BABE
LOVE me&never let me go
SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
(:(:
SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
(:(:
Knock! Knock!
Just thoughts
&today, HAPI 17TH BIRTHDAY TO JULIYANA MD NOH. ((:
Although i didnt get the chance to wish her personally, blog pon jadi and i did wish her thru her nenek. (((: Hope she gets the message. And huever whu reads tis, tell yana hapi bdae ey gerl. Its been long since i last hang out with her. -.- Period.
((=
HAPPY 17TH BDAE TO SADRINA!!
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO AUDREY CHAN!!
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO RAZLI.
HAPPY ADVANCED BDAE TO YUET TING.
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO NADIA
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO FARIS
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO FAIZ
HAPI ADVANCE BDAE TO SYAFIK
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO ISLIN.
And those belated ones. Im sori i didnt get the chance to message y'all. And Hapi BELATED bdae to FASHAAN. Hapi BELATED bdae to NITIKA. Hapi BELATED bdae to ARIFFIN. Hapi BELATED bdae to AZMEER. Hapi BELATED bdae to AFIK.
Fuh. Tts quite a number. ((:
Syasya
The biatches. <333333333
Shiok sendiri.
Shaz babe. Pretty fren.
Back view.
Threesome inc
Again.
Bestie.
Darlings.
At zamzam.
Ape je.
Candidd. ((=
Front view w/o eyes. Shy babe.
Ok fugly. -.-
Sigh.
Smile larh.
See my eyes. Red-rimmed.
Sad huh?
Ciak. Hurhur.
`06 Fad&Sya-
Woots
Sya*Debbie
Smile like i meant it.
Syasya & NAJIB. <3333333333
US.
Sya&Didi
Rathi&Fad
Rathi & Sya <333333
Baah!
Hoho
Nonsen.
Syaddie&Faddie
Faddie love.
Tt`s EEKA. Full of craps. BUT fun!!
We go black.
The gerls.
The leftover grp
Hoho. Caught on tape.
Lynn. Shiffa. Sya.
Brown eyes.
1 
4
Zip n syasya
kiter.
them.
MrBOYFREN aku ye.
The super swit.
Scattered
emo-ing
nice.
seth&seri.
zin&acap
people.
The guys.
Envied.
hakim n taufiq
gerls
couplez.
if we love sb cud we be this strong.
&sya miss MrBoyfren.
Miss you to him.
01 November 2006
Andainya perpisahan terjadi. Ingatlah sayang pesan ku yang terakhir. Kenangan cinta kita. Anggaplah ini semua suratan. Tiap yang bermula pasti kan berakhir. Cinta tak pernah kekal sesama insan. Sepanjang percintaan kita ada saja penghalangannya. Jika dah terpaksa biarlah ku undur diri. Bukannya aku tak sayang dan bukannya benci tetapi kerana sikapmu itu. Dapat ku merasakan dinginnya cintamu terhadapku. Siapakah yang sedang menantimu sehingga ku terbiar tanpa perhatian. Andainya aku undur diri tentulah engkau faham sayang kepedihanku ini. Demi untuk mencari kenangan abadi. Bukannya ku tak sayang. Dan bukannya ku benci. .
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia. Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama. Jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku. Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia. Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama. Jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku selamanya
Kau biarkan diri ku melara. Mengemis cinta suci dari mu. Apa daya aku jatuh cinta. Jatuh hati kepada yang tak sudi. Mengapakah aku kau dustai.. Kasih suci telah kau khianati. Manis kata hanyalah di bibir. Meranalah jiwaku. Cuba kau rasakan nya. Apa yang telah aku merasainya. Kasih telah ku beri tidak kau menghargai. Impian hati ini hancur tidak tercari. Pergi sayang pergi. Tinggalkan aku sendiri. Ku diusik kenangan bersama mu. Ku dibuai rindu semalam.
Okay shuddup. Emo. LOL. Lollies.
Im gonna mit jibJIB. LOL. And im early. Tt`s y im blogging here. Haa. Wee. Fad. If eu mesage me, i didnt reply. Sori ehk. Im not using the hp that much. ((= And ouh. Read the entry above k. Tt`s not a wordplay uh. But chill uh. No emo. LOL. CHill babe. Seriously, one come, one go. Argh. Fcuk larh. ((=
Somewhere within the imperfect me, lies a person totally different from what the eye can see.
Dwell on TODAY`S opportunity not yesterday`s blunder.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I did some kind of a personal test given by 1 of my frens via email. &this is what i found out about myself. its kindda true. ((:- I am a person who keep things to myself.
- Any friends that come along, i will accept and trust them completely.
- My life is not fufilled
- I am weak in my life and tends to be fragile.
- I have low sex drive. (LOL)
- I have a lot of good friends
- Shows tt my last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to me. (*ROLL EYES* My previous one what i wanted in a guy althought dere`s a few. Yes only a few flaws in him. And it is damn real good one and is very3 memorable okeh.)
- When my partner is around, i will still think of him and will be loyal to her, not flirting around with others.
- HIGH ego
- Humble personality
- Average bond with my friends
- My partner doesnt seem to be good in my heart and appears to be a bad sigh. (Hmm, no comment. But i love him larh. ((: )
- My partner is very homely and humble person (Haa. This is ironic though. Humble, yeah. .)
- Lastly, i will always go to my friends if i have any problems.
Friday, November 24, 2006
STep jek
sya.seri.LT.
frens for life?
sya&seri
hari.
hari.
syasya
ciak!
i slouch. -.-"
*more to come. check my photobucket or faddie`s okeh?
Ok. Ive forgot to count the birthdates.
So i missed adik`s bdae.
But well. I wish him alrd. So.
Here`s for eu. Hapi Belated 15th bdae ok?
And tml is Islin`s bdae larh.
Hapi Advanced 17th Bdae okeh?
&today, HAPI 17TH BIRTHDAY TO JULIYANA MD NOH. ((:
Although i didnt get the chance to wish her personally, blog pon jadi and i did wish her thru her nenek. (((: Hope she gets the message. And huever whu reads tis, tell yana hapi bdae ey gerl. Its been long since i last hang out with her. -.- Period.
Ouh. So. See. Im gonna mit my fren at 5 prolly. We`re gg to the flicks. Woots. Fad. Toodles! Ahakz. &sori shaz, cant follow eu. Guei malas sik. Hurhur. &grr. i wanna rant on sth can? Fcuk. But not here. He`s prolly gonna find out about tis. *middle finger* True uh what best bud told me. So after prom, it will be. No. I must reconsider larh ehk. ((: <33333333.
Ok. I had a great LAUGH. :DD
Firstly, sori faddie. Ure mad? Hoho. Okay.
This is what i did. Fadd wanted her friendster skin changed.
So i offered to help her. As i was browsing thru.
My eye caught on this HELLO KITTY skin.
So i played a prank on her.
I took that code and tadaa.
Her skin was left as HELLO KITTY for 2 consecutive days.
&she received a testimonial from 1 of her fren.
Hohoho. Fun yee.. ((:
Self-entertainment.
Okay fadd.
Im sorri deh. ((:
Heee. Period- :DDDD
Okay. Ive been MIA-ing for a while. Woots. Not touching the keyboard for several days due to the busy schedules. LOL. &my life has been vibrant. Been mitting up with the old clicks. &i`ve got new fren. &she`s shikin. Quite amiable. Just like me. ((: Its fun when she`s around. Lately, ive been mitting up with iqa too. &she`s working at Mango megastore. I wanna work dere too. There`s recommendation for me. But eu noe, i just disdain the working environment. There`s several minahs who think that they`re really pretty. WTF. Eww. Not for me larh ey. Some are nice. But it`s okay. I wanna work at McCafe with Lynn. But i heard it`s tiring. However, the working environment is super cozy and fun. Once i lepak while waiting for her to finish her work, her frens are sooo super nice. Friendly. And there`s too many eye-candies. Ahaa. ((: I mean all her working frens are such al-ninio. Get what i mean. And the gerls.. Are like "milo-low." ((: But. Syahidah prefer to work in such environment but less work and good pay. So where to find ey. Haa. :P And i sooo miss working and polar. Yes. I did work there when i was 15. Withe the company of shawal. Fun. Sungguh fun. I miss al that stuffs. We get the chance to taste the cakes people buy. Wkakakaka. Sungguh disgusting. Being the youngest worker at polar, we were given leeway to several stuffs. We even took part in several bowling competition. Wahduhh. Fun banget. &he won the individual championship. &my position was one from the bottom. So ironic. Now, just walk past any polar outlet. &you can see teenagers working dere. Whatever it is, me&shawal made a history over at polar. ((: So, i badly nid to work. Tell me. Is it prejudice to work at a hotel, being at the front desk sector? Hmm. My dad doesnt allow me to work s that. &furthermore, i get to wear a cheongsam with very3 high thigh cutting. Sungguh sexeh. Wakaka. Okay enuf about werk. ((: I`ll be able to get. No worries. It`s just a matter of being soo choosy.
So. Yeah. Im late. But exams are finnaly over. Yeah. Science MCQ was manageable. Thk god. After tt went to mit up with the boyfren and frens. And finally it comes to just him and me. ((: &i really had a splendid time. It was a short mit-ups coz ive got to meet shikin, as promised. Yeah. It has been super long since we spend time like those. Minus the moment on 17 November. ((: Ouh i have to blog on this. After the exam. Dear boyfren and me huggg. Yes we did. Like we`re in the world of our own, where no one seems to bother.((: It was a quickie. Coz i was very, extremely shy. &he gave me a peck too, just outside the hall. Ish. Ish. But that was history okay. Behaving intimately at the canteen was also a bliss. Ahaa. But serious. Ive been depriving for MrBoyfren. And he said that things will be better after the dreaded Os. In my opinion, i doubt so. But we shall see how. Im a lil excited. Maybe im expecting too much from the boy.
Grad day was emotional for majority of us. As for me, i sense the nostalgia. Yeah. Although it was a short tea party, i had fun. Woots. At that moment, i can feel him presence. Yeah. I wanted badly to celebrate his grad day at the very moment. But tak kesampaian. After tt, plann to go to momo and theme park. But was canceled due to short visits faddie had to make to Johor. So. After frad day was pretty boring cause i didnt get to have fun with bestie. On a lighter note, i managed to have fun with Iqa and company. Yeah. We went to lepak at McCafe and we got to noe new people. ButBut. We tak gatal. ((: Went over to youthpark to see some of mag`s fren dancing to the beat. Cool larh sia. &i declare that school frens are not like them. Sungguh lain.
On the day after, i did not went out. I forgot larh. In the morning, went out for breakfast. Mit up with my aunt and cousins. And i noe faddie had a spledid tym with her family. (((: Cant remember much details cause nth hype me up. But. Raihan did say sth. And that rings a bell in my head. Grr. Fad. How. I must be on my guard. Nono. So. Pprd was low. &it really get on my nerves uh sei. At these point of tym bile economic crisis pulak low. Grr. Ahaa. There`s money but i have to spend wisely cause there`s prom to think of.
So on thursday. There`s a date with the biatches. ((: We went to vivo. Wait for them uh is like waiting for a cow to return home. Quoted from a fren of mine. WAKAKAKa. Yes. As promised, meet at 6. But it was delayed till 6:40. Was a lil agitated larh. Syahidah has got low tolerance level. But aku acah je. The three of us dress-up, as planned. Sungguh pretty larh kite. ((: Went to VIVOcity. AhAA. Sungguh fun. &we caught people`s attention. Ahaaaa. Like seriously. It was them who initiated the first move okay. Wasnt us. We,girls, dont make the `st move. Tt`s my policy. Hurhur. So. To me, it was super3 fun. The mats there was not bad larh. But i got my own mat to begin with. Eww. No mat. I disdain mats. I got my balak. ((: So. I wun disclose what happen at Vivo. But trust me, I had a whale of tym. Only thing that shaz couldnt stay long. Wasted. But it`s okay. Fun was all that matters. Finnaly, ive topped up. Woots. (((: So the prom dress was really eye-catching. Pictures will be uploaded as soon as faddie uploaded those prolly in her photobucket. Wait okeh. And the dress i wore was nice. Price was not bad. Ouh. Thx fad for the treats. This dae was supposed to be my belated bdae celebration rite? Ahaaa, I noe alrd okay what eu people has got up ur sleeve. Its the thoughts that counts darling. And picture taking at toy r us was very hilarious. Yeah. We cast aside the dignity and shame, we girls, started to take pics of our own. Being the mastermind, i had fun larh. WE had fun, i supposed. With the stares, who cares cause they doesnt noe us and they see us once which is at that point of time only. &when fad and sya gets together, the world swirl around like its ours. :DD
Lastly, im near to finishing. He has started working. So that means, Satuday plans has to be cancelled. Sigh. I was looking forward to the event okeh. But will be crash. Like again. He`s off on Mon n tues. So that means no celebration kan. I was a lil dissapointed cause he said that after the 20th. He would have the tym to spend tym with me. 1 week before prom, he will manage his time carefully. But his tym has been occupied with works. Yea. Kesian die penat. Sigh. Tt`s part and parcel of working life uh. So. Maybe i have to hang on a lil longer. 2 weeks once. Thats what i`ll prolly get. But i wanna complain. It worse than before. Although thank god that the communication level has buck up. ((: But again. I got tis feeling. Okeh. If ever there`s next tym, i guess i had enuf okeh darlynk? Ahaa. Ok Tis, ive got to substance to blog about.
My plan for today will be vague. Grr. Mabye i`ll sit at home and do the house chores. But it`s FRIDAE NIGHT people. The people out dae is super hype up todae. I wanna go town. I wanna go downtown. Hurhur. We shall see uh who message 1st. Ahakz. &ouh. My throat is getting on my nerves. Yeah. Im down with an infection i guess for two days. &it hurts. Bloody hell, it hurts. Uh-uh. &im not gg to the docs. Shuddup.
And should i say that i miss puppy a lot. Puppy, eu now hu eu are. ((: I miss puppy damn damn loads. Uh fcuk. We are both busy people larh uh. Sigh. Things will never be the same again. Kuakuakua. Okay. Seriously, im done. I`d an enjoying time for the past several days. It was blast. (((: &money pon decrease. Kwang3. Ok done. Pics will be uploaded soon.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Food was lovely over at faddie`s house. Not muchh left. Fadd said food was yummyLICIOUS. I was late. Came at ard 6. So, see i deserved that. Nah. Actually, food wasnt what i wanted. I wanted to help her. Grr. But she's not in th mood to study. Eu uh. Okay tml ring me okay. I`ll put that dae for you. ((:
AndAND. I wanna scream loud. Hoho. *shrieks* Dun mind me. OuhOUH. I still do received bdae wishes. Although it`s belated ones. Haa. People, thank you so much for remembering that date okay. And i got a message from [S.H.] Fad, i tink eu noe hu. No ppple, eu guys dunnoe this person larh. ((: So he message me hapi bdae. I didnt expect a message from him. No. And my heart went jumping around. Swear i felt a surge of electricity in me? Haa. Thx hor dude! (((: Was will what i relate him with. ((:
So im sory eu pple cant come over my house. My mom was working. Okay im done. ((:
Awek rindu balak saye larh. Yes. I got balak. Im learning how to speak malaysia. Thx to Amirul Adli. Hoho.
Ouh. And i wish that faddie and my frenship will last till eternity. I mean its soo fun looking at Cik Ruzi`s frens. They got anak already still contact each other and do make parties. Cool kan? Some day, we shall see.
This cld be a start. To something new. It feels so right. To be here with eu.
Hapi 17th bdae to FARIS!
Hapi 17th bdae to FAIZ!!
HApi 17th bdae to YUET TING!!!
Hapi 17th bdae to SHIYA!!!
And HAPi18th bdae to NADIA!!!
[[To those people who`s bdae is todae, i hope eu pple enjoy ur dae. Coz i do. ((: ]]
17 november. The day i turned 17 years old. ((: I was pretty busy on tt dae. Yeah. As usual, im late by 10 minutes fer the mit-ups at 2.. Hoho. I had real fun at the chalet though. Superb. Okdaa.
And getting to see booboo, was splendid. Yeah. No further elaboration okay. All i wish is to get to see him. And i got what i wanted. So, im just glad. ((: Cause it`s been fcuking long. And i fcuking miss him. Love or fling. Eu decide. Cause i cant. Flick was fun. Eu people better catch that show ok. And he practically fall heads over heels with that movie. Tryna pull his pants down and dancing to the whatever beat he heard. Hoho. The babat was also not bad huh. (((:
I`ll end the dae by hogging on the phone with him till wee hours in the morning. Initially, i was already gg to bed. A phone call that i didnt expect to receive. Haaa. So we ctnue to hog till he`s slpy. ((((:
Darling, thx fer taking your tyme off your god-damn busy schedule to go out with me okay. ((:
I had fun so long as there`s eu. Haaa. Ok. Im deprived kan. *winks*
And the way he didnt want to put the phone makes me aww-wanna melt. Ok shit. But eu ought to be in my place den u understand larh. And booboo, i am touched. Hoho. It was being drag. But i loike. ((:
On the other hand, i didnt get the chance to went out with the theBOY. And i felt kindda lousy a lil. I didnt have the tym to go out with him cause ive decided to go out with booboo. Its not that i prioritise him okay. And fer the past 3 years, its you and bestie that i usually wanted to go out with kan. But thgs change tis yr. Pretty much, i wanted the dae to evolve ard eu and my love ones. But i cant divide myself and im swear that if only a day was set to more than 24 hrs, i would have the tym to go out with eu. Sorry. And i noe ure mad at me. -__-
Friday, November 17, 2006
Hapi 24 bdae to RAZLI. ((: <333333333333.
We got the same birth dates. I cant celebrate birthday together. We made a belated one okay? U go out with ur LOVE. And i go with with my LOVELOVED ones. ((: Ingat ey. Korg kene blanje guei swensen. Nyehehehe. Sure i come want. Gueantee beres. Usah khuatir deh.
Nyehehehe. Im pretty shagged. Yeah. Im at the chalet somewhere near paya lebar. I tink uh. Pple wanna join? Got swimming pool. Wee. But its drizzling. Woke up early in the morning and rushed to meet Faan. ((: Thx dude. Hoho. Mit faris&faiz. Theirs tml. ((: So thx to those aunties okay? <33333333.>
&i feel so loved todae.
So pretty much, i am wondering how it`ll goes later at 2. For oh-so-long, im mitting booboo again. Ironically, im scared. Im just afraid that thgs will screw up and conflicts arise. Ouh fcuk. Im not much of a planner. So pple, korg ajak aku klua, korg takmu tanye ey, "wan to go where?" Grr. So, my pocket is on the loose now. Haaa. And Bigboy called me yesterdae. Im just so3 sori ok. WTH. I dun wanna hear anythg until its end of 17. ((: Not gonna spoil my mood. Nyehehe. Ouh, im hungry. The suprises faddie and shaz made, its tak jadi. I noe alrd. Hoho. Tot tt counts uh. Thx biatches! So thursdae, here we come. Its quite stuck-in-the-middle, having to choose who to go out with. Like seriously, i would LOVELLOVE to go out with my loves. Namely, fadddie&shazzie, bigBOY, theBOY, s(D), rayHAN, zhaffir. And one more, best bud. I soo love them to the core. But sadly, i cant divide myself kan. So since i celebrated my advance bdae with zhaff, bigBOY and best bud already, den its okay. ((: thx ey. So, ive decide to mit s(D). Faddie&shazzie, anithg ring me okay?
On the other hand, ive expected a lil sth fom theBOY. Yeah. He said sth once, 4 days ago, which is on monday. But nayy. Its okay. Its okay. Words are wanton. I wouldnt be expecting if YOU`re not the one hu gives me hope at the 1st place kan? BOYS lie. LOL. AndAND, best bud is being everrrr so understanding. Hoho. Okay im done with tis. Yet.
And im touched by what mommyy did. I woke up at 7 plus initially. Actually i was expecting my family to sing me a bdae song. Yeah, yeah. Tt`s what happenned every year. Mommy will be the CAPTAIN. She will lead and others follow while im still in bed. But todae. Nothing of that happened. )): I creep outside and mommy was nowhere to be found. No one was at home except for my 2 abgs, sleeping. So went back to sleep. Obviously, sad kan. Den ard 9 like tt, i heard some noise while i was aslp. Suddenly those grown ups appear and sang me a bdae song. Yeah. Mommy brought alg a mcdonald breakfast meal, hotcakes.sausage mcmuffin.hashbrown.milo. AndAND. There was mcdonald`s ballon. 2 of them. Like WTH. Haaa. Written there, Hapi bdae anakku. Okdaa. Tts what happened early in the morning while u people are still snoring away. ((:
And now. Im very late. I have to meet best budd. Damn it. I hope i can make it and not be late fer tt 2pm meet-ups. BIG loveeeeeeeee!!
Adik ajak go his chalet at downtown. Mau pagi larh aku!!! ((: Today`s fridae kan?? Hohoho. Okay best. We see how okay. Fridae&Downtown = Splendid.
Ouh. Thx to all those people hu wish me okay. FYI. Fadd. Kamu second sei. ((: Or third. Ntah laa. Yeye. Ramai org ingat jugak bdae saye. Thk eu aye. I feel so loved. Nyehehehe. Tee hee. Okay. Batts on the loose. Tkcr babe&dudes.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Truth unfolds though it sucks. *middle finger*
I shouldnt compare but seriously, she got to see him oh-so-easily. Yet me, none of that. Fcuk. See fad. I told ya. Told ya. Im not brooding too much over this. Cause im near 17 and i have to keep it cool, u noe. ((= Hahaha.
So, those have been cleared up. My life has been quite a mess. Nay. But fer these past few daes, ive been enjoying myself. Though i screwed the exams and to make matter worst, shits happened. But i kept that behind my head and woots. I love tis week from last friday. ((=
Meet ups here and dere. And my pocket semakin koyak. Waaduh! I nid to get a job. So hog otp til 2 plus i tink. I was sleepy but i managed to type this post. Sya!! U have to wake up and mit ur fren at 10 ok!!!
Sigh. Pray fer me okay. No substance. Pretty plain. Tata. And i de-stress just now. Woots. Did i mention that i went to VIVO? Yeah. Fer like the 2nd time. Hoho. K. So long. ((:
And, Im pretty much in love with him. <333
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
HAPPY 17th BDAE TO NADDDhirah-((=
HAPPY 17TH BDAE TO SADRINA!!
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO AUDREY CHAN!!
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO RAZLI.
HAPPY ADVANCED BDAE TO YUET TING.
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO NADIA
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO FARIS
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO FAIZ
HAPI ADVANCE BDAE TO SYAFIK
HAPI ADVANCED BDAE TO ISLIN.
And those belated ones. Im sori i didnt get the chance to message y'all. And Hapi BELATED bdae to FASHAAN. Hapi BELATED bdae to NITIKA. Hapi BELATED bdae to ARIFFIN. Hapi BELATED bdae to AZMEER. Hapi BELATED bdae to AFIK.
Fuh. Tts quite a number. ((:
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Outta with biatches. Fun. Met them late. As usual. =)) Retail therapy. Uh bliss. But those dress that i wanted, dmn the shop. It was close by the tym i reached it again. Fcuk. Bot two tops. And i nid to get shoe.
So went to meet hair doctor. Not tt happy with the outcome though. But it`s okay. I wasted loads of money on it okay. So i have to learnt how to treasure it. Hoho. Pictures below. Ok haf fun. Im lazy to type out. My fingers are sore rite now. ((:
And i fcuking miss my sayang dearest. Fcuk laa. Cb.
Shaz babe. Gd luck fer ur paper tml. (((:
Syasya
The biatches. <333333333
Shiok sendiri.
Shaz babe. Pretty fren.
Back view.
Threesome inc
Again.
Bestie.
Darlings.
At zamzam.
Ape je.
Candidd. ((=
Front view w/o eyes. Shy babe.Ok fugly. -.-
Monday, November 13, 2006
Had lit paper today. Screw. It all depend on my knowledge okay. Fcuk. I cant study. At that point of time, shits have to happen. Fcuk you larh.Somethg is terribly wrong.But i won't elaborate. Define love. Im not quite sure though. Tt`s all i can give. But somehow, it took a turn, i guess. It was a drama, i hoped. But sadly, tt`s all fer real. Reacting in the MOST fcuked up attitude. I was taken aback too. Pple change. Like haloo. I dun give a damn shit on tt. But eu kept insisting me to tell eu. Where's my right dude. So yeah. I admitted i was rough. Im sorry. Sorry is all i can afford. Y tt atitude ey. R eu like guilty. Ok whatever. Aku tak suke ungkit? Forgive but i won't forget. Hate me all eu want. Go ahead. Ive been tolerating all this ever since.It`s hard on my part. But i managed. It`s better i shun myself away from all this.
So anw. Went to biatches' crib. And i lost my mood. I was quiet the whole tym. AndAND. I will try not to make this fcuking shits control me. I`ll try. Fcuk. Im hurt. Yeah. *middle finger* Cb larh. So to past my tym, i slept. Even while watching flicks. And that flick really made my eyes teary. On the other hand, tat feeling stung my heart. And it just went trickling down. ((= Red-rimmed eyes. Headaches.I hate you. I really3 dun like you. So i went home early. Left my biatches and hurried home.
Meet up with big one. It`s been fcuking long since i went out with him. Haa. Not really though. And it just happened. I failed to control it. But thx dude. (((= <3333333333333. color="#999900">big one gave me. To cheer me up, we went to play pool and take rides in the MRT. Hoho. Chances of bouncing into others were very slim. ((= Had our dinner and supper. Sent me home and stuffs. And guess what. I fell from the stairs. Yeah. I missed two flight of stairs and i fell flat on the ground. Thank god im not injured. Hoho. And big one just laugh his heart out. AnAND. While walking at the flyover around GEYLANG. i managed to scream my lungs out. Sori ey. HOHO. AKu PEKIK. Tt`s my way of de-stressing. I loike.
And im just excited about tml. ((= It`s biatches day out. Lets go babe. <33333333333.>
So anw. Went to biatches' crib. And i lost my mood. I was quiet the whole tym. AndAND. I will try not to make this fcuking shits control me. I`ll try. Fcuk. Im hurt. Yeah. *middle finger* Cb larh. So to past my tym, i slept. Even while watching flicks. And that flick really made my eyes teary. On the other hand, tat feeling stung my heart. And it just went trickling down. ((= Red-rimmed eyes. Headaches.
Meet up with big one. It`s been fcuking long since i went out with him. Haa. Not really though. And it just happened. I failed to control it. But thx dude. (((= <3333333333333. color="#999900">big one gave me. To cheer me up, we went to play pool and take rides in the MRT. Hoho. Chances of bouncing into others were very slim. ((= Had our dinner and supper. Sent me home and stuffs. And guess what. I fell from the stairs. Yeah. I missed two flight of stairs and i fell flat on the ground. Thank god im not injured. Hoho. And big one just laugh his heart out. AnAND. While walking at the flyover around GEYLANG. i managed to scream my lungs out. Sori ey. HOHO. AKu PEKIK. Tt`s my way of de-stressing. I loike.
And im just excited about tml. ((= It`s biatches day out. Lets go babe. <33333333333.>
And i miss him still larh. )): Fcuk.
Pretty much busy handling the cam. Hoho. Camwhored though i was at the lousiest. Grr. Behind those smiles, they lays a thousand sorrowness. Damn. Fcuk eu.
Sigh.
Smile larh.
See my eyes. Red-rimmed.
Sad huh? 
Ciak. Hurhur.
`06 Fad&Sya-
Woots
Sya*Debbie
Smile like i meant it.
Syasya & NAJIB. <3333333333
US.
Sya&Didi
Rathi&Fad
Rathi & Sya <333333Mengapa ada dusta. Tika cinta melanda sukma. Tika setia diombak resah. Masihkah ada bahagia. Mengapa ada dia. Tika rindu padamu saja. Tika restu untukmu jua. Akhirnya aku yang merana. Mengapakah aku diluka. Derita kerana sebuah cinta. Yang sekian lama kita bina. Inikah sumpah setiamu. Terhadapku setia selalu. Ke akhir hayatmu. Ternyata palsu. Kuterima semua ini. Sudah kehendak takdir Ilahi. Berakhirlah semua kini. Episod cinta ini...Menjadi sebuah memori. Dan jangan ada benci. Tika kesal menggamit hati. Tika segan menyentuh jiwa. Anggaplah lumrah dunia.
only.a.song.
((=
tiddy ho.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Baah!
Hoho
Nonsen.
Syaddie&Faddie
Faddie love.
Tt`s EEKA. Full of craps. BUT fun!!Eeka was klakar. And how he left his only pen was damn hillarious. Nice meeting ya. ((= And i saw hilman, whom i mistook as hilmi. Grr. Die mintak number dok. Haa. Eye-candy! LOL.
My mood was lightened up when there`s sb i can talk to at the hotel. Hoho. What a coincidence. ((= It was fun larh. Yeye. Additional 200 bucks in my pocket. And that will goes to my hair. *tinking* What else. Extra pocket money will be to my darling NO 1. Hoho. Shuddup. <333..>Tt was my dream. To be a doctor. *middle finger* Shuddup and dun laugh okay. End.
So jln raye with those click. It was so-so larh. Aneh. Sungguh tdk bersatu. Maybe it was. Minus us will be, i tink. But it`s okay. Skewl`s gonna end. And i tot sec 5 would be like oh-so-united. And that made me realise that i miss the other clicks. So.
MARISHER. POOVAN. YUET TING. ISLIN. ANA. FARHI. IBNI. NAJIBBB. AIDIL. IVY. RATHI. NORDIANA. JIA WEI. Those came into my mind suddenly. LOL. U`VE been missed. Oklaaaaaaaa. Jalan raye was funnnnnnnn. With fad. Hoho. We predicted sth. Hoho. What do they have against us uh. Terase diam. Although kite nie baylen-baylen(biskot), die ajak. Aku rase kawan-kawan saye ade yg sunguh hypocritical. Benci. Haha. Okay. Ive got nth against dem larh. I love all my frens. I do. But somehow. Sungguh menyedihkan. Tapi takpe. ((= I dun really nid frens like those. 2 of whom i guess it`s soo unpredictable. Some yg aku pernah rapat. Thanks to those who helpED me in bad times. Million thankss. U will be remembered larh. Haaa. Entry merepek. I dun invite eu to read. Kalau terase, sori babe. And i didnt noe that pple do read others blog. Okay. Its open to anyone, i noe. Ok. I have big mouth. My blog mah. If these rage others, go ahead uh. But unintended. (& if this becomes a topic, that means those who read really has got the initiative to knoe every single content i wrote in my blog. Superb. Shall EU be called KPOs? EU decide okay. Happy day people. ((=)
And ouh. I hate the ATM machine. Fcuk eu larh. Economy merosot. Went to top up my prepaid. And. Skali. I realised that i top up to some other people's prepaid but not mine. Argh. Fcuk. Lucky chap. Okay. Today`s ur dae. Sya. Chill. ((= So no wonder. I didnt get any reply. Bodoh peh kambing. LOL. Ok bye.
As much as i miss him, i wouldnt tell him what i feel. Ego is what it is. Syasya miss MR(s.d). Been quite some time alrd. Those words are hard to be expressed these days. Deep down. I fcuking miss him. I fcuking want him to noe. But wouldnt that bring me so low. Haa. Been there. It`s not a nice feeling. It`s great to noe that sb eu love, love eu in return. Haa. Sb i miss dearly, miss me in return. Woots. It takes two to clap. But how i wish thgs would change. To a much3 better situation, where i would call 'home'. Ok merepek. To a place where i feel that i belong. Yeah. At least. But i dun. Anw. I just dun wan this to happen in the opposite manner. When the situation has recede(teeny weeny bit), she suffered what i went thru. *middle finger* As long as she`s happi, i`ll be twice as happy as her. <33333.
And someone told me sth about Mr(s.d) To believe it or not. Sigh. Okay. Was kindda dissapointed initially. News was not confirmed laa. But im kindda snow-queen already. Cant blame me kan. Ive been adapting to the ways that im in for the past few months. So. An additional of sth wouldnt be a problem. So, if its true. . . *middle finger* AndAND. Ok side-tracked. US has been missed. Upon any chances Mr(s.d) read this, u`ve been missed dude. Yeah u. Everything from head to toe. Messages, phone calls, laughters, outings, etc. AndAND. Ive been dreaming about eu recently. Uve been there for numeral times. I had fun in there. Hoho. Doesnt kill if it happens that way. At least, eu left ur footprints. Hoho. And fcuk. I replied late. Cb. Walaubagaimanapun, aku harus tabah. ((= Pesanan dari abang.yang.takde.certificate. Ok karut.
Friday, November 10, 2006
We go black.
The gerls.
The leftover grp
Hoho. Caught on tape.
Lynn. Shiffa. Sya.Brown eyes.
1 
3
4
Zip n syasya
kiter.
them.
MrBOYFREN aku ye.
The super swit.
Scattered
emo-ing
nice. seth&seri.
zin&acap people.
The guys.
Envied.
hakim n taufiq
gerls
couplez.Thursday, November 09, 2006
I'm not here for your entertainment. You don't really want to mess with me tonight. Just stop and take a second. I was fine before you walked into my life. Cause you know it's over. Before it began. Keep your drink just give me the money. It's just you and your hand tonight.
Pretty.
((:
Monday, November 06, 2006
Di sini kau dan aku terbiasa bersama menjalani kasih sayang bahagia kudenganmu
Pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua disini surga kita
bila kita mencintai yang lain.
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayang ku hilang
if we love sb cud we be this strong.
i will fight to win our love conquer all
i wouldnt risk my love even for just one night.
our love will always be in my heart.
my heart.
a sparrow was in love with a white rose.
one fine day, this sparrow decided to propose to the white rose
but the whiterose told him
that only when she turns red,
then she'll love him.
the sparrows then tears his body and
slowly drips his blood on the white rose
and turns red.
the whiterose then fell in love but the sparrow
isn't there anymore.....
is this love??
I love my gfs. (((:
Maths paper 1. Down.
Social Study. Down.
Maybe i`m just dumb. Maths was hard.
Others find it easy. Ouh. Ouh.
Bang bang. Shoot me.
What happen if i flunk my maths.
Does that mean that i have to go to tt?
*middle finger*
&sya miss MrBoyfren.
Im deprived of him larh.
I miss him way too much. tsk.
good luck fer ur O lvl.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Pretty soon, i`ll go bonkers.
Hapi 2 to dem. ((:
Hapi marriage to his bro.
Miss you to her.
((=
Im addicted to such.
((=
Saturday, November 04, 2006
at worst I feel bad for awhile
but then I jus smile I go ahead and smile.
I found the light in the tunnel at the end.
see you messed up my mental health.
yea it makes me smile.
at worst I feel bad for awhile.
but then I just smile, I go ahead and smile
((=
facade running thru. Bling. Bling.
And ouh. Met up w girlfrens. Ok laa.
&I really dunnoe how to thank her. Like she was there ok. And yeah. And little did i expect her to listen to my whines. LOL. Thx babe.
And i didnt tell those to her. Cause i dun wan her to worry too much. Its like adding a heavy load to someone who has just recovered or something. Nah. I wouldnt want to influence her way of thinking. Again? She said that once before. Maybe it was me. Taking things way too personal. Hoho.
And im just treasuring those time-out with fren. Hoho. Fren really soothe my oh-so-stressed life. All this will come to an end after these mugging period. Ouh. An we talked and talked till the very last minute. Somehow. It`s a waste of tym. But fren was a great fren indeed. Okay. No link. Shoot me. Bang. Bang.
I want EU to noe.
Tt.
U`VE been MISSED dude.
I fcuking miss eu.
Fcuk.
Ciao.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Mood: Apathetic. Tired.
(=
Hapi 17th BDAE TIKA. ((=
Lit down. But im not satisfied. DAMN. Ive got no tym to complete the prose sections. Grr.But it`s okay. Its over. Yeye. And lit tot me sth. He tot me sth too. Haa. Ouh. &Thx to JibJIB fer making my dae these past few days. And also dear shaz. Thx ehk. A'an pn. <33 TheBOY, Im sori if i hurt eu larh in any wae. Thx dude fer being there fer me. And yeah. Stayed up throughout the night with me. Thx MRrayan. Your frens were dere when eu need someone to talk to. Hoho. And i yearn to talk to him. Tau tak aku miss dier. *FORK* Haa. Najib ajar. ((=
And im dead meat. *middle finger* Okay. Im prone to profanities these days. Excuse me aye.
Ouh. Meet up with schoolboi just now. Yeah. Pass stuffs. And thank eu ehk! ((= Sungguh terharu. And he was late. Hoho. Tt means im early babe. =D He`s frens were dere too. And it`s been long since i saw him in schoolboi ala version 2.
So. Went to eat breakfast early in the morning. Haa. Eyes wearily. And stomach very hungry. Bang. Bang. SHoot me.
01 November 2006
Went out with jibJIB. Step high-class brats. Hoho. But was extremely fun. Lazy larh wanna elaborate. ((= Shaz, anythg just follow okeh? Prolly. Next tym. Wee.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Hate is a strong word. I don't really really really like you.
Andainya perpisahan terjadi. Ingatlah sayang pesan ku yang terakhir. Kenangan cinta kita. Anggaplah ini semua suratan. Tiap yang bermula pasti kan berakhir. Cinta tak pernah kekal sesama insan. Sepanjang percintaan kita ada saja penghalangannya. Jika dah terpaksa biarlah ku undur diri. Bukannya aku tak sayang dan bukannya benci tetapi kerana sikapmu itu. Dapat ku merasakan dinginnya cintamu terhadapku. Siapakah yang sedang menantimu sehingga ku terbiar tanpa perhatian. Andainya aku undur diri tentulah engkau faham sayang kepedihanku ini. Demi untuk mencari kenangan abadi. Bukannya ku tak sayang. Dan bukannya ku benci. .
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia. Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama. Jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku. Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia. Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama. Jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku selamanya
Kau biarkan diri ku melara. Mengemis cinta suci dari mu. Apa daya aku jatuh cinta. Jatuh hati kepada yang tak sudi. Mengapakah aku kau dustai.. Kasih suci telah kau khianati. Manis kata hanyalah di bibir. Meranalah jiwaku. Cuba kau rasakan nya. Apa yang telah aku merasainya. Kasih telah ku beri tidak kau menghargai. Impian hati ini hancur tidak tercari. Pergi sayang pergi. Tinggalkan aku sendiri. Ku diusik kenangan bersama mu. Ku dibuai rindu semalam.
Okay shuddup. Emo. LOL. Lollies.
Im gonna mit jibJIB. LOL. And im early. Tt`s y im blogging here. Haa. Wee. Fad. If eu mesage me, i didnt reply. Sori ehk. Im not using the hp that much. ((= And ouh. Read the entry above k. Tt`s not a wordplay uh. But chill uh. No emo. LOL. CHill babe. Seriously, one come, one go. Argh. Fcuk larh. ((=
