the BABE
LOVE me&never let me go
SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
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SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
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Knock! Knock!
Just thoughts
*sitting down next to the merlion*
Talk and talk and talk. . . .
Ouh. AndAND.
Went to VivoCity. Wee. Woah. The place was very BIG. Makk!! There were so3 many people. Grr. Went to best denki to play psp, xbox and playstation. And my pants were wet. Thx to the landscape over there. But fun kan jib. Wait fer our 1st pay dude. LOL. Lollies. Too many things to be done. Left vivo at ard 10. And fuh. Im back home at 11:10. Tired leh. Ouh shits. It`s late. And i forgot to return his kol. Ouhouh. And jib. Thx okeh fer that advice. But cant turn back the tym kan. And i noe die. I feel that way too. But fer yang ini, let me handle. Walaupun perit. Okay merepek.
Fad. Help me accompany ibni to study tml can? I cant uh. MAYBE ive got plans. Wanna come. Maybe i brg ibni alg uh. Ouh. Meet me uh tml if eu need that help. Before its too late babe. And weeeeeeeee. Everythgs fine now. I can finally see her smile. On the other hand, she wun miss me alrd coz she will miss him even more after this kan kan? Alaaa. But it`s okay. Ok. I was just kidding. Yeye. They`re okay. And i likeeee. =)) *cheers*
Ok. 2 down.
I miss amy, ayu, maggie, iqa, harris, hazmi, yat. etc. etc.
And i hope tt Mr Boyfren dun mind this.
24 October2006
Bulan syawal sudah tiba. =)) Yeye da raye. Im not in the least mood to enjoy this year. Hur. This yr was complete. Yeah. =D Went visiting. Tiring. Didnt collect that much. Hoho. Miser 70 bucks. Near that. It really touched my heart seeing the aunties and uncles tearing while seeking forgiveness. Sungguh touching sei. Saye pun turut nangis. LOL. And many kisses were planted on my cheeck and forehead. Wee. But i want those from boyfren. Haa. Jk. So no pics to be uploaded. Thx to stooooooooopid bro. And the camera played on us, damn eu. There goes the chemistry between camera and me. Grr.
On a lighter note. I had fun with faddie. Wee. =)) Fadd. Slalu gini boleh?
Ok daa. I merajok with my mom and sis. Hmph. Went shopping without me. Freak you uh. Dun fren eu.
Im sori sayang. Yes i ignored ur calls and messages. It was just plain excuses saying i was busy and stuffs. But someday. U ought to know how i feel. U really should. U have to. Ive been hanging on to this. Im sorri fer ignoring eu.. But syg. From the bottom of my heart. I miss eu darlynk. Sigh. Whatever uh.
And hey. Hey. Guess wat. I met my frens. Several of them. Wee. And. And. I saw atiqah darling. =DD I miss her like darn a lot lor. We lost contact due to the period of time i lost my sim card. Hurhur. So. We have reunited larh. Wee. She was ubber fun just now. She met my mom. THey knew each other what. And finally, we exchanged number. We gonna meet up real soon. REAL soon. Sori darlz. Im busy with my Os laa. And damn. Im jealous that she can enjoy. Not fair. I miss that fren of hers. The one with his lips, eyebrows, etc, etc, pierced. I forgot his name laa.
One down. Okay. Im happi fer myself. =)) Besides that. It was veryvery weird today ok. I met quite a number of people coming up to me. Saying their haloos and string of words to me. They knew me. I suppose. But hey.Hey. Wait a sec. I dont now eu people. Like there`s this one point of time. This gerl came up to me. She smiled at me and salam me. Like WTH. Haa. Being frenly. I smiled back. Salam back. We talked. Like we knew each other. Serious. Serious. We laughed. She asked how`s skewl and stuffs. Haa. Until. She asked, "Last tym skewla junyuan kan?" And i was like. "Huh? Junyuan? NoNO. East View." She goes. "Ouh. Yeayea. EastView." Haa. I saw the paisehness maybe. But she knew me. I swear she does larh. But i dont. Okay. And the stoopid thing is i smiled at her and walked away to catch my adik sedare. Grr. And the conversation has not ended i supposed. Sori babe. I tok to eu again if i turon dere okay. Since eu are friendly to me. I should be one too rite. ;)
Next. There`s this one guy. Smiling. SMiling. I smiled back. Cause i knew him. I recognised his face okae. He was an ex-dunmanite. I am veryVERY sure. Way back when i was in sec 1, he was in sec 5. Orange nametag. I remembered those liitle conversations we had wen i was still a freshie in that skewl. He looks like hidayat. A lil of shawal`s bro face, ayid. He looks very chinese2 uh. Damn I forgot his name. But shawal noes him uh. I bet. Shall ask him one dae his name. I cant slp lor like tt. And so. I had fun toking to him. And he asked me. "So skarang amaciam. Which tertiary level." I was giggling. Yea. He`s four years older than me. So i replied, " Still in dunman, sec5." He slapped his forehead, not believing what he heard. Hoho. What to do. =)) And. And. He wanted my number uh. Haaa. But I didnt give it to him. Thx to my adik sedare. I went away to catch him. Leaving him by the side walk. But i managed to say bye though. At least i wasnt being rude okay. Sth telling me that shawal`s gg to noe about this soon.
So the rest of the conversation was super random. Those guys that came up to me. Looked at them and smile half-heartedly. Tts it. And i walked away. Gerls, dun ever take in okay by these kenal2 thingy. Grr. I dont know them. So. I knew i behaved all along. I remembered someone okay. =)) i miss him damn byk laa. He did pesan me before i went to geylang. So i listened. =D Angel me.
Ouh. Ouh. And ive got a new fren. Her name is zahirah. I supposed i got it rite. Wei. Im not one KEREK GERL okae. Dun judge ME by ITS COVER can? Lol. If ure nice, i'll be nice. Usually. I wun make the 1st move to tok to someone. Haa. Tts me. And suprisingly, she talked to me. Wee. She`s fun to tok to. Shall catch up with her too some dae. AndAND. She`s ubber frenly laark okae.. Wee. Im glad we bump into each other. =))
And. I miss my BESTIE. Seriously i do miss her. I`ll just stay put and shuddup. Was it a foreboding sign when i gave her the little card i made on thursdae? Was it? =(( But i will just make do with what it is now. Nothing happened. But well. Just leave it to what it is. Yes. Yes. I miss her sei. Sya miss eu lor. =((
And a replied to shaz message on her blog. Daling. Im ok. Thx fer ur concern. And i appologised for not replying ur message. I wasnt at home at that point of time. And sadly, my hp wasnt with me. I miss eu also larh. The conversations we once had. Remember. Sigh.
And i miss my sayang dearest. Her. Ok. Done. Its ubber later. Ciao.
Thx to darling grrlfrens.
1 more minute to go darling.
Hapi belated bdae to sayang dearest.
Im tired.
&sya miss him.
Grr.
Im deprived can.
))=
syasya&azip <33.
Somewhere within the imperfect me, lies a person totally different from what the eye can see.
Dwell on TODAY`S opportunity not yesterday`s blunder.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Was it me? Is it him.
Nth happened uh. -.-
Maybe it`s the exams.
I miss him.
But wth.
Better off . . .
If love was a fire.Then we have lost the spark. Love never felt so cold. If love was a light. Then we're lost in the dark. Left with no one to hold. If love was a sport. We're not on the same team. You and I are destined to lose. If love was an ocean. Then we are just a stream. Cause love isn't for me and you. So why don't you go your way. And I'll go mine. Live your life, and I'll live mine. Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine. Cause we're better off, separated
Monday, October 30, 2006
Saw him just now. I acted non-chalant. But i miss him. Deep down. Yeah. Tt`s EGO. We`re just not like the normal boyfriend-girlfriend material.
And i miss having boyfrens that love me so much.
Ouh. WTH. Ouh fuck. Shuddup sya. He`s diff when he`s with him. Why ehk. Im starting to miss sb that i shouldnt even miss. Hoho. ((= *smack head* I miss MrBoyfren. BUt. Whatever. Period. -.-"
And i miss having boyfrens that love me so much.
Ouh. WTH. Ouh fuck. Shuddup sya. He`s diff when he`s with him. Why ehk. Im starting to miss sb that i shouldnt even miss. Hoho. ((= *smack head* I miss MrBoyfren. BUt. Whatever. Period. -.-"
I screwed my malay paper. Ouh shitty shits. And yeah. He didnt take his paper. WTF. Whatevere larh ehk. Ur life dude. Im tired larh of giving him advices. He won't listen. So. What`s the use. LOL. ((= Went to downtown wif girlfrens. <33.>Ade ahem larh. . . Wee. Okay daa. ((= Dua lagi. Syaaa.. IshISH. OK bye.
Woo!You were everything I wanted. You don't mean a thing to me. All I wanted was your love. Hate is a strong word, but i really, really, really don't like you. I don't even know what I liked about you. Brought you around, and you just brought me down. Hate is a strong word, but I really, really, really don't like you. I really don't like you... Thought that everything was perfect. Isn't that how it's supposed to be? Thought you thought that I was worth it. Now I think a little differently.I really, really, really don't like you. Sebagai kekasihmu layak aku bertanya sekuat mana cintamu. Period. -.-
((:
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Fun. Fun. Fun. Went out with jibJIB. Wee. Okay tt helps uh. Laughing session. Story-telling and stuffs. And went to merlion. Okay best. The stoopid part was. . Private. Ok lame.
*sitting down next to the merlion*
jibJIB: Ehk ni hujan ke merlion ehk?
syaSYA: MERLION larh. Wun rain one.
Talk and talk and talk. . . .
Turn around. And we realised that we've been in the rain fer several minutes. Ok dumb. LOL.
But i tot it was the merlion okeh. Lollies.
Ouh. AndAND.
HAPI BELATED BDAE TO DEAREST FARKHIRAH!!
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Woke up very3 late. But was awaken by my AyAh. Grr. Bising sei pagi2. Ouh. There`s oopen house today. But2. I didnt help my mom. Ok bad. But i went out to study. With najib. Haa. He ajak me the nght before. AndAND. Quite some tym uh since we last went out together. Hoho. But we did todae. Studying at Raffles Place. Wsnt a bad idea after all. But. We did lots of talking more. Knowing us, once we meet, the kecohrable wouldnt stop. Haa. Shiok laa sei. =D And i was late. So took cab to tampines mrt station. And i nearly fell cause i trip on those wire. And that apek was irritated by me. Hoho. And najib was dere laughing at me. Thinking it was very funny huh. Grr. Saye rindu seseorang insan. Tapi takpe. Kite message tak banyak hari ini. Tapi takpe. So we ate a lot. Yeah. At about 8, left the place. AndAND.
Went to VivoCity. Wee. Woah. The place was very BIG. Makk!! There were so3 many people. Grr. Went to best denki to play psp, xbox and playstation. And my pants were wet. Thx to the landscape over there. But fun kan jib. Wait fer our 1st pay dude. LOL. Lollies. Too many things to be done. Left vivo at ard 10. And fuh. Im back home at 11:10. Tired leh. Ouh shits. It`s late. And i forgot to return his kol. Ouhouh. And jib. Thx okeh fer that advice. But cant turn back the tym kan. And i noe die. I feel that way too. But fer yang ini, let me handle. Walaupun perit. Okay merepek.
Fad. Help me accompany ibni to study tml can? I cant uh. MAYBE ive got plans. Wanna come. Maybe i brg ibni alg uh. Ouh. Meet me uh tml if eu need that help. Before its too late babe. And weeeeeeeee. Everythgs fine now. I can finally see her smile. On the other hand, she wun miss me alrd coz she will miss him even more after this kan kan? Alaaa. But it`s okay. Ok. I was just kidding. Yeye. They`re okay. And i likeeee. =)) *cheers*
Friday, October 27, 2006
FirstLy. Hapi 10th to Seri&Seth. =))
Jln raye todae. MooD: -.- [ok. not bad uh.....] Okay. First tym with him. Yeah. Was kindda excited. Wore black togeder. Woke up early. And halooo.. I was very3 early im supposed. Duh. Tau tak rush kan. But Blergh. Sth happened. Shitty shits. It was ok. I got all pissed off. Yeah i did. But thx to new frens. They cheered me up. They knew. Haa. I made several new frens. Wee. Tok mcm daa kenal lame. W/o them. I`ll be damnnn bored okeh. =)) And thx lynn fer the plaster. And those little trips. Ahem. EU noe i noe. The rest dunnoe. Haa. Somehow i felt rather uncomfortable with those stares uh. But being the ____, chill babe. =)) And she admitted that he was not hers. But she miss him larh. But whatever larh ehk. Initially, she knew that it would be a bad idea after all. And thx to fad, shaz, shawal, raihan. They accompanied me thru sms and those phonecalls. From morning till nite. Thx hor. =D Got a lot a lot a lot of things i wanna say. But i shall not diclose it here. -.- Thx to faddie n shaz for listening to my whines. <33.>
Jln raye todae. MooD: -.- [ok. not bad uh.....] Okay. First tym with him. Yeah. Was kindda excited. Wore black togeder. Woke up early. And halooo.. I was very3 early im supposed. Duh. Tau tak rush kan. But Blergh. Sth happened. Shitty shits. It was ok. I got all pissed off. Yeah i did. But thx to new frens. They cheered me up. They knew. Haa. I made several new frens. Wee. Tok mcm daa kenal lame. W/o them. I`ll be damnnn bored okeh. =)) And thx lynn fer the plaster. And those little trips. Ahem. EU noe i noe. The rest dunnoe. Haa. Somehow i felt rather uncomfortable with those stares uh. But being the ____, chill babe. =)) And she admitted that he was not hers. But she miss him larh. But whatever larh ehk. Initially, she knew that it would be a bad idea after all. And thx to fad, shaz, shawal, raihan. They accompanied me thru sms and those phonecalls. From morning till nite. Thx hor. =D Got a lot a lot a lot of things i wanna say. But i shall not diclose it here. -.- Thx to faddie n shaz for listening to my whines. <33.>
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Im dead beat. Attended open houses todae. One is at my nenek house. N the other was over at my mama house. Okay. Was very tiring. But i doo had fun. =)) Quite tiring dae fer me. Met loads and loads of people. One after another. Ey. Ey. AkU like dun have examz ey. Hidup senang lenanag skarang. Sya. EU GG TO DIE. Uh damn. I dun wan to live senang now and suffer later. NOOOOoo. Damn. Okay. I promise. Tml will be the last dae for me to enjoy. Haa. Cakap ajer..
So went to City Hall. Sungguh penat deh kaki. And perot buat hal. Grr. Red flag is on and my. Im in pain. Yesh. And sungguh memalukan sei. Faddie. Thx babe. Daa no more to blog. Lazy uh and im just too tired. Im just excited about tml.
Ey. Korang2 semua line up ehk. HAHA. Ok daa. (main2 je beb.)
Firstly, sori to fad. Eu called me at about 2 in the morning. Eu should have just carried on with the conversation. Dun wori okae.
Anw. Awaken by the phone calls i received from sayang dearest and mama. Sigh. Sori i cant go to town. Alaaa. I want sei. Butbut. I have open houses to attend to. Damn. Neh mind, tml can meet. But im scared uh. Okay being the sociable and garrulous girl, im just scared abou tml. I`ll be alone lor. No girlfrens or whatsoever. Haa. We shall see how it goes.
Ouh. Ouh. I dreamt of sth bad. Shitty shits. Yeah sei. It`s about us. Sigh. Okay bye. My back is hurting and i need to help dayak do the lauk. GTG. I tink i`ll be home by 2. I need to escape asap. I miss the est side. LOL. West side pn not bad. LOL. Mr Boyfren would love this. Haa. Ok bye.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
=)) Hapi 8th month to dearest sayang. And i love eu to bits. Ok daa.
The whole day was spent with girlfrens. Wee. Fun. Minus that lil part. But its okay. But i failed to cheer up my kwn baik. Be strong okay. Nothing`s gonna happen. WE`ll be here okay. And i shall always help eu. Dun wori. Smile babe. On a lighter note. I did enjoy myself with darlings a lot. Ctching up with dem. And we do have a lot of stories. When happy frens meet. Wee. We did a lot of window-shopping. And i bought myself some stuffs. Wee. Haa. Kocek lobang sik. Too bad, there`s no more roti boy. Grr.
And. TheBOY called me while we we at Mango. He was a LJS. Little did i know that he wanted to bump into me. And he waited at LJS. He tot that i will pass somewhere dere. Haa. Im sori deh. =) Next tym, wanna bump just tell me lor. See if im busy not. Wahaa.
Ouh. Little miss red riding hood visited me on the 25th which is today. And now. My body`s aching like hell. Wah duh. Sakit sungguh deh. My back aching sei. My stomach cramp like hell.
Takpe laa. This month i didnt get the chance to go out with sayang dearest. But it`s okay. We are both tight with schedule. Hmm. Sori ehk sayang.
Klaa Im done. There`s nothing to blog.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Few more hours to midnight.
=DD
25 is nearing.
Hapi eight to me&you.
LOL.
Love eu dude!!
<33333
Holy cow. At 09:57pm. Guess hu called? Mr RAIHAN dude.
Yeah. My long-lost fren called me.
Yeye. Slmat ari raye. Bsok 25th.
AndAND. Today. Long-lost fren called me.
I miss him a lot too lor.
I still remembered the way he made me smile and cheered me up.
Whenever im down.
Nah. Nah. Still. I miss Mr Boyfren more. =))
Ok. 2 down.
Insya Allah.
I`ll get in contact with my other kwn lua soon.
Somedae, i hope thay call me cause i lost their number already.
=((
So people. Huever hu has my number last tym.
Do msg me and give me ur number.
But im not using my line uh.
Pathetic prepaid.
Ouh well. At least. =))
I miss amy, ayu, maggie, iqa, harris, hazmi, yat. etc. etc.
Too many uh. And i forget some names. But there`s like others.
Daa raye see and aku tercicir.
STooopid hp played on me. DAMN eu.
And i hope tt Mr Boyfren dun mind this.
I LOVE all my fens!
But im happy with what i have now.
=))
Updated.
Malam raye was fun. It was spent at geylang with my mummy, bros, uncles, aunties, cousins. etc. etc. In search of my last minute raye preparation, i gt agitated. YOu see, Mom didnt get for me all the things that i`d wanted. Ok. It was pretty ex. But mummy. I want. =( Period. And. Boyfren was dere too. I wanted so bad to bump into him. But we didnt. I miss him very much. Im just getting excited that raye will be celebrated with him. 1st tym kan. I loike my black baju. WEee. Managed to find pieces of whites on them. Ouh. I bump into shawal too. It was unexpected ok. Shocked. Imagine sb grabbed ur hand in the middle of a crowded place. Saw ayid. Man. etc. etc. =))
Half a day was spent at grandma's. And i was being tortured. Literally. Whenever i heard raye songs on air, i switched off the radio. But she will turned it on again. Grr. And i did teared at that moment instantly. Tsk. I was just being emotional. Pardon me. But well. Losing sb eu r very close with will eventually leave a great notation. No matter how far ure being separated and stuffs. Well. The bulan syawal leave an impact on me. Being the bulan(month) for remembrance made me think of shawal. Thinking of the past doesnt bring any harm kan.
24 October2006
Bulan syawal sudah tiba. =)) Yeye da raye. Im not in the least mood to enjoy this year. Hur. This yr was complete. Yeah. =D Went visiting. Tiring. Didnt collect that much. Hoho. Miser 70 bucks. Near that. It really touched my heart seeing the aunties and uncles tearing while seeking forgiveness. Sungguh touching sei. Saye pun turut nangis. LOL. And many kisses were planted on my cheeck and forehead. Wee. But i want those from boyfren. Haa. Jk. So no pics to be uploaded. Thx to stooooooooopid bro. And the camera played on us, damn eu. There goes the chemistry between camera and me. Grr.
And. I just miss my bestie. =))
Ok. Make this sort. Shall update it somedae. Anw. Went Geylang. Fuhh it was pack. Reached home at around 3:30 in th emorning. TO my muslim frens, Slamat Hari Raye. Maafkan saye jike tersalah kata atau pape laa. Im off.
ANd. One more daeee. =)) Hapi Advanced 8 sayang. I love eu.. Lucky i got mine black baju. Amin. Wee.
Monday, October 23, 2006
LOL. I woke up very3 late todae. At about 2 in the afternoon. Ouh gawd. Sori ibni. Cant wake up uh. And i didnt layan theBOY's call. Cause i was sleeping laa. I really need to catch up with my beauty sleep. So finally, i woke up when shaz ring2 me. Raye is in 2 more days. And the heat's not there yet. So i need to clean my room. Shaz ajak me to go mall in the afternoon. But i couldnt make it. And theBOY wanted to meet. But i cant.
Den at nite, i meet up with dear shaz. WHile waiting i saw ika. Sweet as ever. Looking gorgeous larh. Went to mall. Minutes later, he came. The shoe sayang showed me is nice. Hmm. Im gonna get it. Hurhur. At that`s the first, we went shopping kindda thingy. Kan? And he sure does talk a lot todae. Comment sane sini. AndAND. Shaz. I hope eu dun mind ehk the way we behave. HAaa. I mean. We hold hand and stuffs infront of eu. *blushing* But. . . TAk mind ehk? Keke. So after that, went separated ways. Thx fer sending me home sweets. So. We meet. YEAHHH. =D At the bstop, several thgs happened. And my heart was pumping real fast lor. Ok laa. No further elaborations.
Ouh. AndAND. My mom found out todae. That me and him is no longer togeder. Wahh. Da lamer baru tau ey? She bombarded me with several questions. I guess she misses him. Yeah. But at the same tym, she asked me. "Y eu never bring SD to me?" Alahai. Just wait k. Maybe not the tym yet larh k ibu. <33.>
And. I sooooo misss my frens. I miss faddie. Shaz. Poovan. Marisher. Ana. Jia wei. Farhi`s crap. Aidil merepekness. Najib. Yuet ting`s accent. I miss the whole of my frens uh. Nn. I miss my bolster uh. Rashidah. Gladynn. A lot uh. Sigh. I miss amy too. Mane dier menghilang aku pn tak tau. Maggie. And the rest of the group. Saye lupe name. TO others. Slamat Hari Raye ok. Maaf kan saye jika ade salah saya buat. Wee.. Mintak Ampun people. =))
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Congrats to ibni for mugging for solid 6 hrs. *claps* As fer me, 6 hrs of crapping. Sigh.
It`s near 6 and im using the comp. Hoho. Everyone`s aslp. Tt's y larh. Lol. Kk. Anw. Went buke with ibni and faddie yesterdae. And thx k fad. I met SD along the way. Okay. Even if it`s just mere 2 hour plus of mit-ups. I treasure all those teeny weeny time ok. I just wish time will stop the moment im with him. =DD Lame tau syasya tak klua ngan dier. *smile cheekily* Ou. Raye is so like coming. And i appologised ok to sayang. Grr. Stoopid people. Yeah, while we were walking, we heard that song. Raye song in dikir version. For the whole of Ramadhan, i never try to listen to any Raye songs. Ok. Sense of nostalgic is dere and i just dun wan to rekindle the past, u noe. And my heartrob, sweety pie understood it at that instant and took me away from that place. But still can be heard. This time faintly. Im sori SD. TheBOY called. And nth much. Just an unexpected kol though.
So faddie. Wana follow me to shop for my stuffs? But tak konfem uh. I have no mood to raye tis yr. The heat`s not there yet. Sigh. But it`s okay. I have not buy my baju yet lor. Whenever im free, my mom's not. Vice versa. And im going black again tis yr. Wee. =)) People, ure invited to my house okay. =)) I shall pray hard my mom and dad's not working. Wee.
And i just miisss my frens a whole loads. Catch up with deM soon. One down. =))
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Mood: Hapi GERL and stable. =DD
Ok. I have to make it very3 quick. At the moment, i cant use the comp. Ive been barred. So anw. Went out with theBOY yesterdae. And he waited fer me for so3 long under the block. He looked pale and not well. Get well soon ok. And sori u have to wait fer me that long. Told eu to cancel but eu dont want. Im sori. . . Head to geylang. And we walked the whole of it larh. Tired. At first. I felt awkward. The bonding has lost someway in the middle. We`re not as close as before. BNut situation was lighten up several minutes later. ButBUT. Whenever i was with him. I kept thinking. If oni my that`s my sayang dearest. I just miss miss him. Going out with him and stuffs. =(( But well. That was put aside at a moment. I dun wan to ruin the mood. So. We catch up with each other. It`s been long since we last hang out k. And I did behave. I swear i noe my limits. Just that a lil bump here and there. What i did the last tym was a real nono. So im not like that. Cause cause. I think about my sayang dearest. I dun wan to be a dissapointment to him. Like again. Like how i used to. Imagine if he did that. Obviously, i will go berserk. But the ending was way too emotional. It just came to us. Flashbacks. It hurts ehk thinking about the past. But well. That`s my life. Kenangan yang terindah. At least. Our paths met. Thank god.So. He kept singing raye song. Grr! I just dun like larh. It really bring me to the past. Whenever i hear to Raye song, i will remember those tyms(2005). Heartening. Sigh. Ok i wun elaborate as much. Ouh. Thx fer the mit-ups ok.
The phonecall yesterdae cleared my doubts. Yes. And i am very greatful that it has ben cleared. Wee. =)) And i woke up with a smile on my face. I dreamt about myy sayang dearest. How we spent time together. Grr. I realli3 miss those tym. It`s been very3 long since we did that. So. Dalam mimpi pn jadi. And hey. It`s been very2 long since i had a beatiful slp and dream about him k. . . =DD So the few daes. I had slpless nitez. Kept thinking what will happen to us. Was very scard of the possibilities then. And now. Im a happy gerl. My sayang dearest loves me a lot. a lot. Hmph. =))) I believed what he said. N im just hope that his words are so true. Maybe im blinded my those words. but. At least that reassure my notthattenteramfeelings. And sayang. Im just so3 sori ok i made eu tear. I undergo that too. Now, it`s over. But i want eu to repeat the last explanation. One dae ok. So. Im sori. And to the people involve in cojoling our heart. Thx people in comforting and giving us advises. U`re all super great frens. No names to be listed. EU may judge me. But really, that`s what eu tink.
And FAD!! SHAZ!! Ok daa. Wee. Aku sungguh happi. Okay. Darn. I nid to rush lor. I nid to meet ibni at 10:30. And it`s alrd 9:23. Gawd. I dun wan to be late. Hurhur. Ok im done. Gerlfrens, I MISS YOU. We nid to do a lil of catching up. Sayang! I love eu larh. ANd to theBOY. WHatever it is. I want eu to get well. Just let time recede the situation. Never put hopes pls. NEVER. And i dun wan to lose the close bond we once had. It`s really ok if we`re just close frens. I dun find any harm in that. Eu ought to understand that ive alredy love my sayang dearest. And its okay if we`re close but i want eu to understand that ive got limits. Pls. I dun wan to lose my sayang dearest`s trust that he has instilled in me sei. And at the same time, i dun wan to lose the frenship we established. Thx fer that understanding. Thx. And people. Syasya just love eu all ok? Wee. Amin-
=DD
Friday, October 20, 2006
EArly in the morning at 8 o'clock. Initially, i tot that there's malay class. Ironed my clothes and stuffs and waited fer fad's call. And. There's no class cause it's been postponed to MOnDay. Darn. Cant make it sei. Ive got meet-ups at 10am. Done with that.
And. Went back to slp. Received a message. Ouh. There`s a year-end NPCC outing at GOPENG. Where the hell is that? Most polly, im going. Overseas trips. Woot! End.
AndAND. Im in the midst of searching a new skin. I just dont what`s rong wth my skin. ButBUT. I loike this skin sei. Nice larh.
And now. Im just doing some reflections and thinking about some things. Ive got a bad vibe. Our time is really running out. Is it. I told him about that yesterdae. It`s weird though. Im nt the vibrant syahidah anymore. What is it that went wrong. NoNO. Takde angin. Takde ribut. But there is something that i felt deep down about him. And. He guessed it right. But the dumb me said, "guess not larh". LOnely. Maybe that`s the word. Ive got many girlfrens and guyfrens to hang ard with. BuBUT. It`s just that i want it from him. Im just too deprived. Tt`s all that i can sae. I miss him larh. The whole of sayang dearest can.
And. Went back to slp. Received a message. Ouh. There`s a year-end NPCC outing at GOPENG. Where the hell is that? Most polly, im going. Overseas trips. Woot! End.
AndAND. Im in the midst of searching a new skin. I just dont what`s rong wth my skin. ButBUT. I loike this skin sei. Nice larh.
And now. Im just doing some reflections and thinking about some things. Ive got a bad vibe. Our time is really running out. Is it. I told him about that yesterdae. It`s weird though. Im nt the vibrant syahidah anymore. What is it that went wrong. NoNO. Takde angin. Takde ribut. But there is something that i felt deep down about him. And. He guessed it right. But the dumb me said, "guess not larh". LOnely. Maybe that`s the word. Ive got many girlfrens and guyfrens to hang ard with. BuBUT. It`s just that i want it from him. Im just too deprived. Tt`s all that i can sae. I miss him larh. The whole of sayang dearest can.
[[Mengemis kasih orang. Tak sedar siapakah diri. Yang menumpang di sudut hati. Tak tahu orang dah tak sayang. Walaupun tak ku rela. Kehilangan mu sayang. Bersama air mata. Ku lepaskan kau pergi. Andainya dapat kau rasa. Kepiluan dihati ini. Bagaikan terbakar api. Semarak pedih terasa. Bila cinta hampir menghilang. Perginya tiada berpesan. Ku menangis kerana mu.]]
Hmm. Okay the song is too jiwang. LOL. Ive stopped listening to jiwang months back. Im ok and i tink that the song above is just right. Notice the stirke off words okay. AndAND. Walaubagaimanapun. Sya masih tetap sayang kan dier laa. Ive gone thru silent tortures. And i hope we will be okay. Just let time receds the situation. God, pls give me the strength to carry on. Im still wondering what`s wrong with us. Was it me? Sigh. I never been in such situation before maybe tt`s y i feel awkward. Yikes. And i never want to lepaskan dier pergi. <33.>Namun, aku pasrah. LOL.
Sayang, if eu read this. There`s sth that eu shuld really change. And i loathe the behaviour. But my mouth just dun wan to sae it out to eu. WHatever it is, just regard this as part and parcel of relationship. We`re not exposed to arguements and misunderstandings. Every problem there is a solution kan. I hope that this will be fine no matter what the outcome is. I want the khanky us. But. Concentrate on exms k. I miss those time when we meet sei. I tot yesterdae. But takpe laa.
So. Yeah. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. A lot. A lot. A lot.A lot. A lot. Truckloads. More than a truck can load larh.
Ok. I wanted to pour my hearts out. But i guess, not here. So, Im meeting theBOY at 2. I hope he`s alrite alrd. He insist on fetching me. Hmmm. He wanted to go vivocity. Far siol. And the place not yet open officially. Soome shops are still renovating kan. Hmm. See how uh. I dun wan any arguements. I`ll keep myself cool. =)) It`s been super long since we catch up of each other.
Ok laa. Im done. I miss sayang dearest.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
HAPPY.3.frens. <33
wee.
ok shuddup.
bla.
shhot eu.
smooches
darlings.
Ahh. Finally. Science prac is over. -.- It was ok. And i managed to re-do my 1st experiment. Thk god. Amin. Chemistry was ok larh. I hope i`ll get the grades tt i want. Plss. I nid those grade larh. Hu doesnt rite?
Ouh. I met my fren just now. Helmi. He was like. "Syahidahh. Haloo." Still remember me ehk? Good. Good. And when faddie left, he said nye to me and i replied with s miling face. Helmi's frens were like. "Ey. Kau kenal dier? Mintak kan number dier." Helmi came to me while i waited for the bus. We chatted for a while. And i didnt give away my number.
AndAND. Proms on 28 nov. 55 bucks. So graduating pple. GO okay? =))
Okay. Im tired . . . There`s nite class today. Uhh. Yesterdae he said sth. And i hope jadi. ButBUT. Ware just mere sayings oni. Sigh. But it`s okay. Blergh.
Random entry-
It was FUN just now. Started off being embarassed. No details laa. Anw. Thx faiz and faddie fer ur help. =)) However. It will still be redeem by me. I want it soo badly can. Toking session was fun. Hoho. And TheBOY messaged cum called. Yeah. Wanted to bring me out to eat PappaRoti. I waS taken aback larh. Butbut. He tinks that i dun wan to layan him. No laa. Supposed to meet him. But i guess not. Fad adviced me on the consequences. Thx darling.
Spend the afternoon with Jia Wei. Crapped a lot. Hurhur. Too long to elaborate uh. Im lazy dude. Butbut. At nite. Sth really pissed me off. A group of small mats-wanna-be followed us and think that they`re one BIG F* Grr. WHATEVER . MatREP MatREP. Ini semua adek-adek UH.
So met sayang dearest. Like finally. Ouh. He tagged? Suprised larh. AndAND. Im hurt still laa. But it`s ok. Im doing pretty well. =)) Forget it uh. I wan to meet him like again can. Ive got no mood just now. But the moment i see him, all the feelings melted. Sigh.
Ouh. Its prac exam tml. GAWD. People. GD LUCK OKAY.
And. Hapi BDAE to Cik RUZI!!
And. CIALE, HApi 16th bdae~
(16 ey? LOL)
28 more days. . . .
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Im tired. Worn-off. Im tired of appologies. Im tired of waiting. WHATEVER.
I managed to come up wih excuses. However. Yes. Im missing him.
But i dun get any benefits. So?
Just random entry. Duh.
On a lighter note. I had fun with faddie. Wee. =)) Fadd. Slalu gini boleh?
Camwhored. AndAND. Shaz!! Datang laa nite study. I miss eu lerr. =))
Met Marisher darling. Haa. Catch up with her. Wee. FUN. Poovan takde. Kinda miss her too larh. Ibni was dere. I had fun toking to him pn. Wee. Ibni! Tml ok? =)
Ok daa. I merajok with my mom and sis. Hmph. Went shopping without me. Freak you uh. Dun fren eu.
Im sori sayang. Yes i ignored ur calls and messages. It was just plain excuses saying i was busy and stuffs. But someday. U ought to know how i feel. U really should. U have to. Ive been hanging on to this. Im sorri fer ignoring eu.. But syg. From the bottom of my heart. I miss eu darlynk. Sigh. Whatever uh.
Monday, October 16, 2006
So i reached home quite late todae. But it was real fun todae. Hoho. So i went to Geylang todae. With my family and 3 other familes. It was packed with lotssa people. Too bad. Naa wasnt dere. Dayak pn takde. Hurhur. But it`s okay. Mingle with those small ones. =D So. I spent lotsa money on food. Duh. Mummy gave me 25 bucks. Within 3 hours, its gone. On food. Lalala. My stomach is bloated now. My legs are super tired. Overal, it was ubber fun. Im gonna be there again tis tues. Maybe. If ive got the tym.
And hey. Hey. Guess wat. I met my frens. Several of them. Wee. And. And. I saw atiqah darling. =DD I miss her like darn a lot lor. We lost contact due to the period of time i lost my sim card. Hurhur. So. We have reunited larh. Wee. She was ubber fun just now. She met my mom. THey knew each other what. And finally, we exchanged number. We gonna meet up real soon. REAL soon. Sori darlz. Im busy with my Os laa. And damn. Im jealous that she can enjoy. Not fair. I miss that fren of hers. The one with his lips, eyebrows, etc, etc, pierced. I forgot his name laa.
One down. Okay. Im happi fer myself. =)) Besides that. It was veryvery weird today ok. I met quite a number of people coming up to me. Saying their haloos and string of words to me. They knew me. I suppose. But hey.Hey. Wait a sec. I dont now eu people. Like there`s this one point of time. This gerl came up to me. She smiled at me and salam me. Like WTH. Haa. Being frenly. I smiled back. Salam back. We talked. Like we knew each other. Serious. Serious. We laughed. She asked how`s skewl and stuffs. Haa. Until. She asked, "Last tym skewla junyuan kan?" And i was like. "Huh? Junyuan? NoNO. East View." She goes. "Ouh. Yeayea. EastView." Haa. I saw the paisehness maybe. But she knew me. I swear she does larh. But i dont. Okay. And the stoopid thing is i smiled at her and walked away to catch my adik sedare. Grr. And the conversation has not ended i supposed. Sori babe. I tok to eu again if i turon dere okay. Since eu are friendly to me. I should be one too rite. ;)
Next. There`s this one guy. Smiling. SMiling. I smiled back. Cause i knew him. I recognised his face okae. He was an ex-dunmanite. I am veryVERY sure. Way back when i was in sec 1, he was in sec 5. Orange nametag. I remembered those liitle conversations we had wen i was still a freshie in that skewl. He looks like hidayat. A lil of shawal`s bro face, ayid. He looks very chinese2 uh. Damn I forgot his name. But shawal noes him uh. I bet. Shall ask him one dae his name. I cant slp lor like tt. And so. I had fun toking to him. And he asked me. "So skarang amaciam. Which tertiary level." I was giggling. Yea. He`s four years older than me. So i replied, " Still in dunman, sec5." He slapped his forehead, not believing what he heard. Hoho. What to do. =)) And. And. He wanted my number uh. Haaa. But I didnt give it to him. Thx to my adik sedare. I went away to catch him. Leaving him by the side walk. But i managed to say bye though. At least i wasnt being rude okay. Sth telling me that shawal`s gg to noe about this soon.
So the rest of the conversation was super random. Those guys that came up to me. Looked at them and smile half-heartedly. Tts it. And i walked away. Gerls, dun ever take in okay by these kenal2 thingy. Grr. I dont know them. So. I knew i behaved all along. I remembered someone okay. =)) i miss him damn byk laa. He did pesan me before i went to geylang. So i listened. =D Angel me.
Ouh. Ouh. And ive got a new fren. Her name is zahirah. I supposed i got it rite. Wei. Im not one KEREK GERL okae. Dun judge ME by ITS COVER can? Lol. If ure nice, i'll be nice. Usually. I wun make the 1st move to tok to someone. Haa. Tts me. And suprisingly, she talked to me. Wee. She`s fun to tok to. Shall catch up with her too some dae. AndAND. She`s ubber frenly laark okae.. Wee. Im glad we bump into each other. =))
And. I miss my BESTIE. Seriously i do miss her. I`ll just stay put and shuddup. Was it a foreboding sign when i gave her the little card i made on thursdae? Was it? =(( But i will just make do with what it is now. Nothing happened. But well. Just leave it to what it is. Yes. Yes. I miss her sei. Sya miss eu lor. =((
And a replied to shaz message on her blog. Daling. Im ok. Thx fer ur concern. And i appologised for not replying ur message. I wasnt at home at that point of time. And sadly, my hp wasnt with me. I miss eu also larh. The conversations we once had. Remember. Sigh.
And i miss my sayang dearest. Her. Ok. Done. Its ubber later. Ciao.
Friday, October 13, 2006
I hate the fact that ive got to wait his reply. And adding tothat, he did not. Quoting from a friend of mine. Waiting for him is like waiting for a cow to return home. Whatever it is. Yes. Sya still do love him okay. =)) And i just miss him very much. Sadly, we cant do anythg. And maybe there's nothing that i can say besides i love eu. And i miss eu. Wouldnt he be tired of all those little things. Maybe i would. One day. Hell no. People do get tired kan.
Let me count. Less than 5 messages within a day. How bored can tt be. LOL. Yes. Im veryVERY bored. Being the minority is his life i should say. I remembered him promising that he would study after 2nd. But well. Promises are meant to be broken though. =))
Today was spent at my aunt`s place. Im streessed. So to de-stress, my dearest Hidayah brought me to this place. Initially, the place was serene. However, it was infested with the mats and mats-to-be minutes later. How not kecohrable can that be? It was fun though. I managed to keep him out of my mind for a moment. The idea of me checking my phone for that message or call from him is superficial. Cause he wont. I guess. The probability of him doing that is 1 out of five i would rate. Hurhur.
Bottomline is that. It's better to be loved than to love. &i longed for sb to love me as much as he did. History.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Today marks the last dae of my sec skewl life. A wholesome of 5 years in Dunman sec. It`s fast though. Lit class was emotional. Ms Cheong 's speech was short and sweet. 3 years with us. Hruhur. Im gonna miss my sec skewl life. And most of all. Im gonna miss 5A. Sigh. The idea of not being a dunmanite really pulls me down. I enjoyed my time knowing people, getting scoldings and stuffs in skewl. After today. There won`t be any of those. I will miss the dramas in skewl. Lol. And i gave sth to faddie. =)) Sayang dearest was wearing a tappered pants today. So matt-ish. So. Im done. Enough about being too emotional. And. And i guess she is just plain jealous. LOL. Nk amik gambar pn nk bising bising.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
It`s past midnight and im still awake. My body`s aching. I miss my darlynk LOADS. I pray fervently that my dearest aquintance will get well soon. And i didnt realised that he was expecting a call from me these days. Im busy. And Fad dearest told me to keep to date with him for these few days. He did that for me in the past. And now, it`s my turn. I want him to get well. =((
And study leave is nearing. One thing i fear is that i will drift apart from sayang dearest. Maybe. Never know kan. Anw. Sya miss him LOADS and i`ll heart him to bits k. Gd luck fer ur Olvl to everybody hu`s taking O tis yr. Im scared laa.
And i`m going to miss my class whole loads can. Spending five whole years with them. Hurhur. =)) Im gonna miss the tym im wearing school uniform. Haa. Shall update soon when ive got tym. Remind me about those tym when me and faddie cabot class and all. Aitez. Yes. We did that. Haa. Fun. Take care to him and i wish him well.
Friday, October 06, 2006
06October2006
A date that is ought to be etched in my memory. Though it was a belated one. Somehow. The awkwardness is still dere. I was super duper late for goodness sake. I kept postponing the time. Im sorry darlynk. So. I didnt get him that thingy i had wanted. Had to godoen to Heeren. And practically, there`s no tym. Got to rush here and dere. And thx to darling fad and shaz. We took neoprint. HOHO. It`s hilarious though. Sth is wrong with my scanner so. I wouldn't be able to upload it. Maybe it was mundane. But so long as i got to see him. The 3 hrs were short. No further elaborations.
Pictures will be up real soon. Thx to fad and shaz. Thx fer helping me collect the cake k.. =)) Love eu honeys!
And i hope he like what he`s gotten. The cards are ubber lame. And thk god that i managed to come up with the money. Though i over-budgetED. Lol. Lucky not much laa. It`s over. Yeah.
But somehow. I was so3 excited 3 days back. But the excitedness slipped away by wednesdae due to some reasons. Sigh. Lesson to be learnt: Dun get too excited.
OK. Im done. Im tired. Bubbye. <33>
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Somehow i feel hurt.
Expect the unexpected.
Expect the unexpected.
Thx to darling grrlfrens.
I broke down just now.
Haa. MALU sik.
Sori i lied.
Sth is wrong with me.
I dun blame eu.
Focus on Os darlynk.
Sya luv eu.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
To darling grrlfren: Happy 1 month anniversary. Hoho. ((= 1 more minute to go darling.
Somehow. The excitedness has decrease.
I hope that the plan will not change. To the very last minute.
But its okay if it happens.
Im quite use to it alrd. ((=
And ive got a confession to make. Not here though.
I hate the behaviour somehow.
Today was peculiar. But im not the onli one. Thk god.
Yeah. No high hopes or whatsoever.
Bitching session was fun. Correction. Life experience toking session.
Hoho.
Thx sweet. Fer sharing.
Catching was fun too.
And im sorri i was quite cold.
But im suprised though.
Its not like that fer the past several weeks.
Darlynk, i miss eu. Its like ALOT lor.
Words cant explain everythg.
Love eu. Swit drms.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Hapi belated 1 year to dearest nad&rizal okay. ((;Hapi belated bdae to sayang dearest.
Im tired.
&sya miss him.
Grr.
Im deprived can.
))=
Monday, October 02, 2006
&sya miss my sayang dearest aLOT. =((
Hapi BELATED 17th BDAE to RATHI.
Wee.
sayang, Hapy 16th bdae. And its official. =)) 10:02pm. Was it? ;))
16 years back he was born. *RAZIFcry* LOL.
16 years back he was born. *RAZIFcry* LOL.
And i had a whale of tym in skewl today. Hoho. Fad really made a fool out of herself. So, eu despise on her huh. Haaa. Better luck ext tym grrlfren. Dear sec 5A would noe what i mean. And i ponder to myself. Y do fad alsways get scoldings from her. And this is what i noticed. Teachers hu scold her will alwaez scream their lungs out. Haa. Funny laa. And i appologised for making eu as my laughing stock todae sweetie. And i still love eu. Do eu love me still? <33.
Retail therapy was fine. Hurhur. She got what i had wanted. BOoya. I want that mango top. So many things to get. But im gg to be broke rite now. And i still have got no idea what to buy fer him. I find high and low for long sleeve shirts. But it`s not nice. Grr. Now how brown cow.
And. I didnt get the chance to celebrate with him todae. WTF. Firstly due to the grounded schemes. And i tot he will be gg to his aunt's. So i tot. Well fine then. But. But. Ok. I hope eu have fun. So i wun ask larh wen will be the appropriate tym to celebrate tt with him. The onli dae i can was todae, wednesdae and fridae. So we shall see what happens next. Lalala. Love eu darlz.
Im lazy to type further. Im tired. . .
Sunday, October 01, 2006
syasya&azip <33.
ouh. I stole this from swithrt-lullaby.blogspot.com.
So. He saw my blog. He READ it.
OMG.
Sayang.
Whaever it is, that`s all in the past okeh.
Will this affect us?
hmm.
Dun assume ANYTHG.
Plss.
Im scared.
It`s not that im guilty larh.
But im just concern about ur feelings.
Ok. Im done.
I love eu sweets.
Fad! Hapi Children's Dae.
hoho.
The boy wished me tt.
Like haloo.
Haa. =))
I shd wish tt to darlynk.
Hoho.
Hapi CHildren's day sayang.
Halo. Sya`s bored.
I miss faddie.
Sorri i hung up on eu .
hoho.
I kol eu later.
See if i GOT tym.
I miss sayang dearest.
I more day.
Wee.
Love eu sweets.
No. Sya miss eu even more larh.
He called.
Like again.
Was taken aback by his calls.
=)
Im hungrryy.
