the BABE
LOVE me&never let me go
SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
(:(:
SPOiLTbrat-
i got a fettish for DIMPLES, ouhmygawd.
(:(:
Knock! Knock!
Just thoughts
And at nite, i hog on the phone with sayang dearest. Wee. Fun. Fun. Super fun. If oni there isnt ani skewl todae. Laa.But i noe he misses me a lottttttttttttttt. As he said. But wat can we do. Besides complaining. Lalala.
Ok. Im done. Sayang dearest just messaged me saying he miss me. Wee. Study hard n concentrate k sayang. Chiayou. Love eu baby. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Muaahzz.
And sayang. Its 25 tml. Here`s an advanced 5 MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY. Haa. LOL. I love him. I swear that i love him. Even more?
Okay gtg. Lala
At the concert. Miss eu darlynk.
Syasya sayang Razif.
Reflection. S.S
Its us. agayn. Love eu bebeh.
Posing. Mamat saye. LOL.
I noe eu lovee taking pics. LOL.
Tts us. Wee. Smuahh syg!
Sayang dearest solo. He`s myy. <3>
Sya solo.
We went through thick n thin in NPCC. ((=
Ivy, Rathi, Sya n Fad.
Us. 2006
Sya n Jia wei agayn.
Mate stone.
Sya n poo.
Sya n jia
Halo.
Hoho. Us.
Ib n sya. Wee.
Sya n faiz. Hoho.
Jib n fad
Jib n aidil. ((=
Bestie okay.
the sha n sya.
Sher n Sya. Lalala.
Halo. tts sya n khairul. Hoho.
Poovan n faddie.
Bestfwens. Sya love her.
Islin n faddie dearest
She`s my no 1 gf.
JIb n sya. ((=
She`s my les. LOL.
Fwens in BLACK.
Lala n dada. Wee. Frens fer 5 yrs. ((=
Aidil. Frens fer 5 yrs. ((=
Syasya n weiwei. Close pal.
Tt`s ME n KHAIRUL. ((=
Okay. He was trying to SMILE. ((=
He ate most of the fries. =P
He`s ex MINEZ sygKU-
He`s HUNGRY. Cian ye. .
He was HURT by what i said about RAIHAN-
Me. Ok bye-
I LOIKE tis best. <3s him.
I was shiok sendiri.
Reflection.
I MISS him like hell.
Finnaly. We meet. ((=
I love him fer hu he is.
That`s ex pwencez and pwence. ((=
Never let him go.
3rd CD For Dearest Wawal-
1. The Way We Used To - A Cutthroat Kiss
2. Ku Bertanya - Adams
3. Ku Bertanya - Adams
4. Jangan Pisahkan
5. Mengapa Perpisahan Yang Kau Pinta.
6. I`ll Be There for You - GreenDay7.
8. Gurgurnya Bunga Cinta
9. Sincerely I swear
10. The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez
11. Akulah Kekasihmu - AXL
12. Rindu Serindu Rindunya
13. Meraung
14. Sejarah Cinta Kita
15. Ku Menangis Kehilanganmu
16. I Miss You - Simple Plan
17. Say Im Sorry -
18. Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge
19. If You Were Mine - Marcos Hernandez
20. Be Without You - Mary J Blinge
``Syasya-
2nd CD For Dearest Wawal.
``Syasya-
1st CD For Dearest Wawal.
1. Gone So Young - Amber Pacific
2. I Miss You - Blink 182
3. Letters To You - Finch
4. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
5. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
6. We Belong together.
8. Lovers & Liars
9. Promise
10. Far Away
11. Memory
12. P.s I Love You - The All American Rejects
13. Nyanyian Rindu Buat Kekasih - Data
14. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
15. Nadia
16. Sayang- KRU
17. Ku Menganis Kehilangamu
18. Mengusung Rindu
19. I`ll Be There For You - Green Day
20. Truly Madly Deeply - Pisto
``Syasya-
Somewhere within the imperfect me, lies a person totally different from what the eye can see.
Dwell on TODAY`S opportunity not yesterday`s blunder.
Monday, July 31, 2006
Ouh sheesh. I woke up early todae. Was awaken by my sayang dearest. He messaged me. ((= So anw. My flu`s getting worst. I feel like ripping off my nose. Its so darn irritating lor. Gee! So.anw I hope that he would make it later. I mean that if he can go out, we can meet. Wee. ((= Tt was his suggestion. So yeah.
My dearest sayang is stressed. Cian dier sei. Sayang. Smile kae. U will pull thru tis hurdle bebeh. Never never give up. I`ll be dere wherever eu nid me k syg. Seriously, i dun wan eu to drop ur DnT. Pls3. Work hard on tt pls.I hope u try. U can do it. I noe eu can. Chiayou.
So anw. Let me summarise the highlights of yesterdae. Lucky, the ticket was CHEAP. If not. I would be a waste of money to go to that concert. LOL. Actually, the band was nice. Except fer 1. The vocalist. Not bad arr. But there`s one. Hu caught my attention. So melodious. Seriously. As a matter of fact. And hey. Hu saes that ITE students ar mats n minahs? I doubt so laa. They are a whole bunch of friendly people i should sae. ((=
So. Yesterdae was a dae that i ashamed myself. LOL. Being soo clumpsy. I pretended nth happened and walk out of the toilet. Actually. I wanted to wash my hand. So there i was in the toilet. Nice laa the toilet. And high-tech. So the tap was automatic. Obviously, i came across such taps. So, feeling high-classed. i placed my hand under the tap. But nth came out. I tried and tried. But nth still. The girls looked at me. So, i tot i was being fooloed. So i tried to pressed the tap. LOL. Gave up. Finnaly i walked out of the toilet. How humiliating!!! GAWD. At least, u girls wun be seeing me in ur skewl. So eu dun recognised me. Haha. Bluek.
So. I went to play pool yesterdae. Ate yong tau foo. Yummeh. I was winning but i lose at the very last minute. How sad. Played 9 games in 1 hr. Head to tamp. And everythg was normal except the thgs that happened in the bus. He was indulging in my privacy. How cld he? I noe he scolded him profanities. Im sori. Eu pushed me to that limits. Eu tot i contacted with several other guys? Hey. Listen here. I dunnoe hu koled or messaged me. Those numbers are alwaes those hu got my number from hu-noes-where. And i dun layan them. At most i replied. Hus tis. Like duh. I love my syg dearest. I wouldnt want to betray him laa sei. Once is enuf. Cause i noe. The next tym if i do it again, me and syg dearest will be history. No wae. I lovelove him lots lor.
So eu doubt me rite. At least, my sayang dearest trust me a lot. But somehow i did made him lose his trust in me. ))= I`ll buck up to gain tt trust again. And let me tell eu. Whatever i do. There`s alwaes tots about my sayang dearest. So. Im not silly enuf yeah. Hell. Shut up. Wateve.
And hey. I lost my mood yesterdae. Parts of yesterdae outing. It`s because i didnt get any message from ssyang dearest the whole of yesterdae. I tot he was angry at me for gg out with abg wawal. Which i tot was impossible. Firstly. I told him my whereabouts. Secondly. I told him i would behave. But he gave me the cold shoulders by not messaging me. I was worried by his actions. But i tot i wanted to "just-let-it-be." Follow the flow kind thingy. But i remembered what faddie said to me. Sometimes, Eu have to make the 1st move. So well. I did. I pluck my courage to message him. Seriously, i miss him a lot. Wen he called me, he told me that he was aslp. LOL. Cian2. He was trying to escape the boredoom and stressed of him. So he turned to sleep instead. And furthermore, he was tired jamming with his frens. So. Lucky me. Nth happened. So we tok fer a while otp. Yesyesyes! I miss eu okay. ((=
So daa. The end laa. I tok a lot. And sayang. Listen here. Tis fer eu. I love eu. I miss eu. BIG hugs. Tkcr okae. Sttudy hard pls3 sayang. And try to cut down on ur ciggies. Anw. Have i blog on y im down with this illness?? I guess its because i inhaled too much smoke. And it made me worse. Till now. But nahh. Nobody`s too blame. ((= Bottom line is. If eu stop smoking. People around eu will stay in the pink of health. And eu too will be healthy. But i noe it takes tym. But ur choice k sayang. And hey. Never2 give up in ur studies. EU wanna be an engineer rite? So.. Buck up and move towards ur dreams syg. U make it somedae. Have faith. Remember ur parents. How hard and tiring they have sacrficed, just to see their son to go onto the next level, succeeding in life. So. Eu too have too try and work hard just like ur parents. I want eu to do dem proud. ((=
And hey. To raihan, bo, rissy, riad, amy, mag, ayu n huever hu messaged me. Sori ehk tak reply. Been busy lately. And amy. Im sori. I guess i wun be hanging ard with eu guys anymore. I will miss eu. My choice to leave eu guys silently. Coz 1stly, my dear bro dun let me hang ard animore. I noe, Its fer my own good. So being a good sis, i will listen to my bro. But i shall holla eu wherever im free. But not as frequent k.
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Ouh well. Im gg to ITE simei soon. I mean there`s a performance dere laaa. Wif abg wawal. So here`s a short enrty. Im sick. Im sick. And i miss my sayang dearest. A lot. Fuh. Must wait till Mondae. 2 more daes till i can get to see him. And maybe tt dae, i wun be gg to skewl. Sigh. See laa hor. So anw. I will behave okae. And sayang, kite sayang awak. Tkcr baby.
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Tt`s my BESTFWEN Smwah!
We won the best dress award tis yr. ((=
Tt`s my 2006 class. I love dem.
We won the best dress award tis yr. ((=
Tt`s my 2006 class. I love dem.
TheEND
dada.sweets
Friday, July 28, 2006
Oh well. Todae. Skipped the nite study. Well. It wasnt complusory to begin with anw. And. I accepted my bebeh`s invitation to go out with him. Nah. So. [We went to acap`s house. Nice house sei. His toilet bowl. Style laa. Haa. ]2Anw. It did not turned out as he planned. But nah. Its okay. I appreciate it though. The dae end with a sad smile on his face at 1st. It was because he felt rather guilt coz he didnt spend his tym with me. As he was busy with his stuffs. Nah. Seriously its okay. I noe u tried. But not to wori k syg.. The last part was fun. Ok laa. I was left alone with him. I had to cheer him up. I dun wan him to feel bad. So. Yeah. My BEBEH likes to merajok. LOL. But hes such a dear to me. I loveee to disturb him. Haa. Gd! And i LOVEE to see that look on his face wen i ticke him at his weakest point. LOL. BIG hug!! Ok laa. I done.
My stomach hurts. Seriously. It hurts. Didnt eat at all. But my mistake was i ate spicy food with gassy drink when my stomach is empty to beggin with. Ah crap. It hurts like mad. And so. I miss my sayang dearest a lot. I miss him.
My stomach hurts. Seriously. It hurts. Didnt eat at all. But my mistake was i ate spicy food with gassy drink when my stomach is empty to beggin with. Ah crap. It hurts like mad. And so. I miss my sayang dearest a lot. I miss him.
TheEND
dada.sweets
Thursday, July 27, 2006
See. Ive been wanting to blog. But time does not permits me to that. Grr. So. Been very busy with my skewl stuffs. I doubt that i can make it fe my fnN. Grr. But what the hell. I cant possibly drop it. SHit. Tt will be 1 sub down fer me. And that wil be such a waste and also such a shame. But . Well. Laa. Busy laa. See eu later. Shall blog somedae. ((=
+
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
A simple smile. Crafted memories in my heart. I wish that earth would stop swirling, and the tym would stop. LOL. I lovee it. Definitely, i enjoy myself although it was a short mit-ups. Thx to him. And im sori that i hurt eu at the spur moment of tym. Unintentionally. I find eu quite vulnerable. Even if ure not one physically. But im the one hu keeps hurting eu time and again. But yet. U shine my life still. ((= Thx fer understanding me. Although i knew that deep down, u suffered in silence. Hmm. So. Let me take tis opportunity to wish eu a very
I like it this wae. Thx. ((= P.s. I love eu bebeh. Eu came into my life unexpectedly. I swear i didnt even planned it his wae. Eu came to me by surprise. But well, im glad that our paths met. Wee. Mwah. I miss eu. And i miss eu soo. And so. Todae was the 1st tym i called eu syg LIVE. LOL. Wee. That expression i saw on ur face. Eu were surprised. I noe. ((= Tat`s it. I love todae. I love todae. And it`s obvious that i dunwan to lose eu. Im scared though. I wish. I wish i can be with eu Now. LOL. Shall dream about eu bebeh. Hapi 5th mths k sayang. Tkcr. And syasya sayang dier.'HAPI 5TH MONTHLY-VERSARY'
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Im hapi todae. Hakz. Yes uh. Ctnue some other tyme. Smile. ((=
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Wee. Having malay lessons now. Fun indeed. Since we finished out stufs. We are able to play the com. And i saw my sayang dearest. Wee. N i sooo miss him. Shall sum everything up. Anw. Yesterdae syasya went to cityhall agayn. Wee. Now that place is my playground i guess. So. Anw. There`s tis guy hu i find kinda irritating. Grr. But well. Swear. He`s my fwen.
Anw. Yesterdae happenings was like tis. After cityhall, i met fad. Was suprised wen she agreed. Cause we dun reali hang ard animore. Supposedly, we are to study but ended up. We played pool. Wee. Its a draw. Fair game. Wee. Was fun laaa. Since it`s been long since i went out with my dear faddie. Anw. During the pool. It was not that packed. But in the middle of the game, faddie was being called. And i tot sb nak fight with her. But guess wat?! That girl hu called her is/was fad`s fwen. Her fwen wanted my number. LOL. Crazy!! Haa. But like duh. I didnt give it out easily okay. But let me comment. The fair guy is cute. Honestly. He`s cute. Fad noes kan. AAfter pool, went to eat sundae. Yummeh. Wee. Shall eat some more okae. We hang ard at the bstop fer a while. Skali saw faddie`s mom n fwens. I was scared lor cause i have to take the same bus as them. Hahaha. Grr.
After that, went to tamp to take 69. And there`s this golden-haired guy came to me. WTH! I hate laa al tis. Cant be bothered. I guess that todae itself, there`s like 4 guys came to me to ask fer my number. Lalala. No wae. I love my sayang dearest still. Like he said. He `s hurt if someone he loves betrayed him. I mean. I dun wan to betray him. N i dun wan him to lose his trust in me. Cause swear. I do love him. ((=
Anw. Yesterdae happenings was like tis. After cityhall, i met fad. Was suprised wen she agreed. Cause we dun reali hang ard animore. Supposedly, we are to study but ended up. We played pool. Wee. Its a draw. Fair game. Wee. Was fun laaa. Since it`s been long since i went out with my dear faddie. Anw. During the pool. It was not that packed. But in the middle of the game, faddie was being called. And i tot sb nak fight with her. But guess wat?! That girl hu called her is/was fad`s fwen. Her fwen wanted my number. LOL. Crazy!! Haa. But like duh. I didnt give it out easily okay. But let me comment. The fair guy is cute. Honestly. He`s cute. Fad noes kan. AAfter pool, went to eat sundae. Yummeh. Wee. Shall eat some more okae. We hang ard at the bstop fer a while. Skali saw faddie`s mom n fwens. I was scared lor cause i have to take the same bus as them. Hahaha. Grr.
After that, went to tamp to take 69. And there`s this golden-haired guy came to me. WTH! I hate laa al tis. Cant be bothered. I guess that todae itself, there`s like 4 guys came to me to ask fer my number. Lalala. No wae. I love my sayang dearest still. Like he said. He `s hurt if someone he loves betrayed him. I mean. I dun wan to betray him. N i dun wan him to lose his trust in me. Cause swear. I do love him. ((=
And at nite, i hog on the phone with sayang dearest. Wee. Fun. Fun. Super fun. If oni there isnt ani skewl todae. Laa.But i noe he misses me a lottttttttttttttt. As he said. But wat can we do. Besides complaining. Lalala.
Ok. Im done. Sayang dearest just messaged me saying he miss me. Wee. Study hard n concentrate k sayang. Chiayou. Love eu baby. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Muaahzz.
And sayang. Its 25 tml. Here`s an advanced 5 MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY. Haa. LOL. I love him. I swear that i love him. Even more?
Okay gtg. Lala
The END
dada.sweets
Monday, July 24, 2006
At the concert. Miss eu darlynk.
Syasya sayang Razif.
Reflection. S.S
Its us. agayn. Love eu bebeh.
Posing. Mamat saye. LOL.
I noe eu lovee taking pics. LOL.
Tts us. Wee. Smuahh syg!
Sayang dearest solo. He`s myy. <3>
Sya solo.
We went through thick n thin in NPCC. ((=
Ivy, Rathi, Sya n Fad.
Us. 2006
Sya n Jia wei agayn.
Mate stone.
Sya n poo.
Sya n jia
Halo.
Hoho. Us.
Ib n sya. Wee.
Sya n faiz. Hoho.
Jib n fad
Jib n aidil. ((=
Bestie okay.
the sha n sya.
Sher n Sya. Lalala.
Halo. tts sya n khairul. Hoho.
Poovan n faddie.
Bestfwens. Sya love her.
Islin n faddie dearest
She`s my no 1 gf.
JIb n sya. ((=
She`s my les. LOL.
Fwens in BLACK.
Lala n dada. Wee. Frens fer 5 yrs. ((=
Aidil. Frens fer 5 yrs. ((=
Syasya n weiwei. Close pal.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Tt`s ME n KHAIRUL. ((=
Tis is on the Racial HArmony 2006. Took it from poovan`s cam. Thx a lot darling. ((=
Tt`s me. LOL. Wif the highcut. WTH. WTH. ((=
She & him. [He`s cute. <3>__((=]
Me. LOL.
Is and me.
Sya n ana.
Ting and me agayn. ((=
((=
y.Ting n ME
us. 1st.
halo. tt`s poovan n me.
Tt`s me. LOL. Wif the highcut. WTH. WTH. ((=
She & him. [He`s cute. <3>__((=]
Me. LOL.
Is and me.
Sya n ana.
Ting and me agayn. ((=
((=
y.Ting n ME
us. 1st.
halo. tt`s poovan n me.
So peek a boo. Seriously. Ive been very busy. Lately. Im alwaez outside with my skewl uniform till late. Sigh. N because of that. That`s the reason, i shall assume, why i am drifting apart from my dearest bestie. But there`s 1 other reson. But i shall skip that part. But anw. I do miss her lots. Very. . . ))'= She`s my heart and soul. She`s my heartbeat. My shadow. Yes she is. I love her sososo much. But somehow. PPle change.
So. Wanted to blog on so many thgs. Too many. But i have got no tym to go online n stuffs. But well. On 21st July. We celebrated RACIAL HARMONY. I wore a cheongsam. N before hand, me and sayang dearest had planned to wear the same colour. ((= And i was sososo excited. Anw. I love him. Been missing him like hell. But just dun follow ur feelings. All goes well. Too lots of pics. FUn. Shall upload later.
So late evening, there`s this concert by our very own teachers. It was hillarious. Never knew that our teachers have such talents. We saw the very different side of their characters. Mr BRB really rock my sock. Haa. Ms Yew is cool. Anw. I saw my dearest bro on stage. I knew he was performing. I knew he was observing me and dearest sayang. But. What can i do. So. now. Im afraid what the teachers might assume next. Boo! ((= Wes all pull thru. But sadly. I was realli super scared wen i have to go home all by myself. And it was about way past 12 am. Gosh. My bro was realli angry about that. N fad was worrying about me. Im sorri guys. But i love eu both okay. So i did toook picx with my bro. Cool. He`s in his DK costume. Seen him in tt before. Supposedly, im suppose to take pics in that cotume too. But i was late. Sad.
So i appologised to faddie. Cause supposedly. I was to go out with her. But instead i went off with sayang dearest due to some reasons. Im sorry fad. It`s alwaez my fault rite. Somehow, i guess im afraid to tok to eu nowadays due to the frayed relationship. I hope thgs will be better. Cause i miss US. I miss US lor. ))= But tkcr okay. Whtever eu do. Must.
Ok. Im done. Im sorry to those hu are affected due to my behaviour. And sayang pls cheer up. Miss eu my dear!
TheEND
dada.sweets.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Ouh well. Sya just rreached home. Fuh. Im exhausted larh. Quite tiring. Went to SCIA. Fer short. LOL. I guess thats its acronyms. WTH. ((= So. i did enjoyed my time there. But i was kinda tired and sleepy. But i had a great laugh. Here and there. And there i was. So many eye-candies. And the sky train was infested with the ANGMOHS. Fuh. They smiled. Being friendly. I returned their smile. Lalala. But i was being caught by him! Haaa. But overall, it was hilarious. Deep in his eyes. I noe there`s sth disturbing that individual. ((= So. He did not went to KL afterall. He tak sanggup to leave me. WTH. ((= Thx a lot. But anw. He`s gonna perform tis FRIDAE. And guess what. I lost his lyrics. OMG. OMG. How nie. ))=
So. Anw. I was caught plaing taiti todae. There were fad, nad, aidil and hari. Im afraid fer thl. I dont want to be called up. Im shy. Ouh shit. What will syg dearest tink seh.
Klaa. Im tired to blog. So anw. Thgs lighten up fer me and my dearest her. Wee. I miss her far too much. = Nitez. And i miss my syg dearest. Yes uh. He`ll be gg to the concert. Wee. And i hope it will turn out well. No clashing okay.
TheEND
Dada.Sweets.
Monday, July 17, 2006
Hog on the fone with sayang dearest. Well. Thx a lot sayang. ((= EGO is the word. But. I had rather remain silent. It`s better that wae kan. But sadly. Ive gt to put down while he`s still busy toking. Cause my dads there. Grr. Sorri k syg. We story2 next tym aitez. Anw. Thx 4 listening to my whines. And yeah. I miss her. I miss her. MAYBE. As much as i miss eu.. LOL. Dun be jealous. She`s my 1st matair. Bluek. She`s got to be mine. ((= So was fun speaking my heart out. SOME. To him. I opened up and he did too. Its okay kae syg. Eu dun be sad too. Im still here kae. And i love eu. As much as i love her. Ok im done. I miss my syg dearest. Gd nite syg. *hugs* Tkcr baby. Smile. Daa. And i guess. Both of us do have too many EGO infested in us. Ouh. Ouh. ((=
But i love him still. Thx syg.
The END
Dada.Sweets.
Ok. At last. My entries are back. Wee. Thx to my personal blogger technician. And she`s none other than. Shiffa Aziha. ((= Thx ehk. But sth is still not alright. Gee. Tis thg is realli complicated.
Ouh well. LC is loike anothe few hours tym. Good luck to me. And gd luck to my fellow frens. Fad! Gd luck eh. To my sayang dearest too. Gd luck. Ouh yeah!!
Hapi 19th Bdae RAIHAN!! I miss eu lor.
If im free, i shall kol eu. But not now laa okay. So i reached home like about 2;45 like that. Kindda late. Met amylia jap. She and her guy.. BuT there`s also iffin. Haa. Okae. Too hell to their names. Byk laa kene ingat. Kol everybody ehk. Ehk. Pn okay wat. ((= Im still new.
So actually. Just now i was supposed to hang ard with fad. But decided to 'tarik diri' Due to some reasons. And for that i shall not comment it on blog. ((= So skewl was bored. Yeah. Nth happenned but well. It was fast though. Me and her doesnt seem to tok much nowadays. Right? Y ehk. . . And it seems that maybe i noe the reasons. But that should be kept personal. Syasya is now ever so secretive. Wee. ((=
Oklaa. My neck`s hurting. Im gonna change and go to skewl. Maybe im late. Ouh. Ouh. Gd LUCK syasya!! Gd luck Fad!! Gd luck syg!! Gd luck amyy&co. Gd luck frens!!! ((= Amin.
The END
Dada.Sweet.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
TheEND
.Dada.Sweets.
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
TheEND
.Dada.Sweets.
Fuh. I dunnoe y. But todae. I felt a great sense of achievement. Haha.Anw. Ive just changed my blogskins. And now. It`s far more nicer. Nono. Wat i mean is that i`ve got songs and also my pic. Wee. ((= Hmm. And. Its soo miserable living with no hp. Ive not yet top up my prepaid. Bugdet laa.. Maybe tml? Haa. So anw. Sayang. Im soo sori kae. I cant call eu. My parents at home. I wish i cld. And sayang. I miss eu sooo much. And awak. Tis song is fer eu. I meant it in a positive way kae.
So anw. Im not gg anywhere todae. Hmm. Have to stick ard at home cause tis week ive been out all the tym.
And anw. My family is happi now. No. Im happi now. Ive alwaes been looking forward to go home deze daez. Wee. I love my abg jam. So yesterdae. I fought with my sis. She called me a bitch. WTF. But my mom heard it. And fer tt. She has been reprimanded by my mom. Gd.
Ok done. Im done. I miss my sayang. So i tink i wun be mitting sayang dearest next fri. As he planned. But i noe. Last min. He akan cancel. But i made up my mind as i had plan to go fer the concert. ((= I wannna support my fren. Wee. Ok done. Miss fad lor.
So anw. I went out yesterdae. Went to ECP. Fun. Cooling. And hey i loike it wen there`s eye galore. And he`s dere sniggering at me.. LOL. Ok done. Im stuck at home todae. Haa.
TheEND
Dada.Sweets.
So anw. Im not gg anywhere todae. Hmm. Have to stick ard at home cause tis week ive been out all the tym.
And anw. My family is happi now. No. Im happi now. Ive alwaes been looking forward to go home deze daez. Wee. I love my abg jam. So yesterdae. I fought with my sis. She called me a bitch. WTF. But my mom heard it. And fer tt. She has been reprimanded by my mom. Gd.
Ok done. Im done. I miss my sayang. So i tink i wun be mitting sayang dearest next fri. As he planned. But i noe. Last min. He akan cancel. But i made up my mind as i had plan to go fer the concert. ((= I wannna support my fren. Wee. Ok done. Miss fad lor.
So anw. I went out yesterdae. Went to ECP. Fun. Cooling. And hey i loike it wen there`s eye galore. And he`s dere sniggering at me.. LOL. Ok done. Im stuck at home todae. Haa.
TheEND
Dada.Sweets.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Im gg out todae. Wee. I miss my sayang laa. Real lots. He called me just now. ((= Okay im running late. Gtg. Not yet bathe. LOL. Tok to Raihan just now. ((= Miss him a lil though. But he`s oni a fren to me. No more. I love my sayang. He`s soo beautiful. Such a beautiful disaster. ((= Miss him a lot. N syasya miss fad. -__-"
TheENDS
Dada.Sweets.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Had lunch at Seoul Garden. Ooo. Yummy. Thx fer the treat. Anw. We went to take neoprints. YUho. After so long. But de end part was a disastrous. I scolded profinities. Grr. Sori. Im sori. Didnt meant it. So hope to see eu tml. And i soo R square. Hmm. Ok. Its not healthy to miss sb too much. And salam takziah to his fren`s family okay. Okay fad. Thx fer the top yeah. ((= Maybe. After skewl. i go straight home. Since i know that u will be alrite with ur new bestfriend. LOL. Klaa. Its good den. Anw. Eu share most interests with him/her now. Kan. Kan. Hmm. K den Take care.
Dada.Sweets.
Monday, July 10, 2006
So. If not. Dada mit sayang. But he cancelled it at the very last minute. And i waited fer him. N ended up. We didn't meet. Sigh. Yeah. Im feeling that he is using me. But what about all thos swit words he said to me? What about the moment when he said he loves me, misses me, etc. I have doubts about him. But seriously i do miss him to the max. So that`s the sad thg fer todae. Anw. Sayang is down with a tummy upset. Tkcare kae my dear. Go eat ur ubat and dun move around too much. Pls. TKcr baby.
However. My mood was lightened up. Sayang kiter ade good news. He told me that he has been reducing his cigarettes fer the past few dae. Wee. Im sooo hapi fer him. Yes i do. I wish he can stop that habit. But i haf to give him tym kan. Chiayou sayang. ((= I dunnoe if that`s a wae out to make me cheer up. But well. Im stiil with the idea that u`re alwaez de one hu raised my hopes and at the same tym crashing it apart. Tsk. And one dae. Im gonna tell eu everythg. If i dare. LOL. It`s true. Based on my malay tx and wb. Girls pretend to keep their inner most feeling to those hu are involved in the scenario. But felt better if share it with someone else. Rite. Hmm. Okllaa. Tt`s it. Tata. Its been long since i tok to raihan. Haris. Ayu. I miss dem. Okay whatever it is. Dada miss my sayang and i miss her. A lot. Hush. Hush. Thx nge fer coming into my life. Eu are the torch of my life. Haa. Copyrite from eu kan. LOL.
Dada.Sweets.
Hoho. Been sooo long since i blog yeah. So anw. A lot of thgs have been happening lately. And let me declare that syasya am soo tired of my life.. Saddenned by surroundings. Laa. I want de happiness. I miss soo many people. Ok. Im done. And i miss my abg jam. An now. I have him back. Wee. Yes uh. He`s fun. I look forward to see him everytym. . . ((= He`s a good bro. Smuah. I love him.
Dada.Sweets.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Finally. Im blogging again. So yeah. A lot of things have been happening around my life. Yeah. I feel that sth is troubling me. But i guess im too slpy. I shall elaborate it one dae. But the hatred is growing. I hope it wun burst. Ok till den. I miss fad badly. I miss her. I miss my sayang too. Now. Im back w my bro. And i thk god fer tt.. Anw. My abg Nizam IS BACKKK. Wee. Yes uh..
TheEND
.Dada.Sweets
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Blog is DEAD. However. Much things had happened. But i love my sayang a lot. Thx fer loving me sayang. Thx fad for being dere fer me. I love eu too. I will learnt my lesson. Cause i noe that i love him so much that it will affect me if he`s gone and i dun wan it to happen. It was close though. Ok daa.
TheEND.
Dada.Sweet.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Okay. He was trying to SMILE. ((=
He ate most of the fries. =P
He`s ex MINEZ sygKU-
He`s HUNGRY. Cian ye. .
He was HURT by what i said about RAIHAN-
Me. Ok bye-
I LOIKE tis best. <3s him.
I was shiok sendiri.
Reflection.
I MISS him like hell.
Finnaly. We meet. ((=
I love him fer hu he is.
That`s ex pwencez and pwence. ((=
Never let him go.
So. I burn this CD fer him. Especially dedicated to him. Yes i mean it.
3rd CD For Dearest Wawal-
1. The Way We Used To - A Cutthroat Kiss
2. Ku Bertanya - Adams
3. Ku Bertanya - Adams
4. Jangan Pisahkan
5. Mengapa Perpisahan Yang Kau Pinta.
6. I`ll Be There for You - GreenDay7.
8. Gurgurnya Bunga Cinta
9. Sincerely I swear
10. The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez
11. Akulah Kekasihmu - AXL
12. Rindu Serindu Rindunya
13. Meraung
14. Sejarah Cinta Kita
15. Ku Menangis Kehilanganmu
16. I Miss You - Simple Plan
17. Say Im Sorry -
18. Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge
19. If You Were Mine - Marcos Hernandez
20. Be Without You - Mary J Blinge
``Syasya-
2nd CD For Dearest Wawal.
1. Always You - Amber Pacific
2. Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Note To Self - From First To Last
4. All My Life
5. Ku Doa Agar Kau Bahagia - Arrow
6. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
8. Terima Kasih - Lestari
9. Usah Diturut Kata Hati - Data
10. Hilang Dalam Ramai
11. Ku Simpan Rindu
12. Never Be Replaced
13. Pernah - Ferhad
14. Perpisahan Teasing -KRU
15. Laguku Untukmu - Hasnol
16. Dalam Kenangan - Exists
17. Unsaid Things -
18. Andainya Perpisah Terjadi.
2. Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Note To Self - From First To Last
4. All My Life
5. Ku Doa Agar Kau Bahagia - Arrow
6. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
8. Terima Kasih - Lestari
9. Usah Diturut Kata Hati - Data
10. Hilang Dalam Ramai
11. Ku Simpan Rindu
12. Never Be Replaced
13. Pernah - Ferhad
14. Perpisahan Teasing -KRU
15. Laguku Untukmu - Hasnol
16. Dalam Kenangan - Exists
17. Unsaid Things -
18. Andainya Perpisah Terjadi.
``Syasya-
1st CD For Dearest Wawal.
1. Gone So Young - Amber Pacific
2. I Miss You - Blink 182
3. Letters To You - Finch
4. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
5. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
6. We Belong together.
8. Lovers & Liars
9. Promise
10. Far Away
11. Memory
12. P.s I Love You - The All American Rejects
13. Nyanyian Rindu Buat Kekasih - Data
14. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
15. Nadia
16. Sayang- KRU
17. Ku Menganis Kehilangamu
18. Mengusung Rindu
19. I`ll Be There For You - Green Day
20. Truly Madly Deeply - Pisto
``Syasya-
So. I burn CD fer him. All deze songs are especially dedicated to him. Specially fer him. And i mean it.
3rd CD For Dearest Wawal-
1. The Way We Used To - A Cutthroat Kiss
2. Ku Bertanya - Adams
3. Ku Bertanya - Adams
4. Jangan Pisahkan
5. Mengapa Perpisahan Yang Kau Pinta.
6. I`ll Be There for You - GreenDay7.
8. Gurgurnya Bunga Cinta
9. Sincerely I swear
10. The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez
11. Akulah Kekasihmu - AXL
12. Rindu Serindu Rindunya
13. Meraung
14. Sejarah Cinta Kita
15. Ku Menangis Kehilanganmu
16. I Miss You - Simple Plan
17. Say Im Sorry -
18. Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge
19. If You Were Mine - Marcos Hernandez
20. Be Without You - Mary J Blinge
``Syasya-
2nd CD For Dearest Wawal.-
1. Always You - Amber Pacific
2. Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Note To Self - From First To Last
4. All My Life
5. Ku Doa Agar Kau Bahagia - Arrow
6. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
8. Terima Kasih - Lestari
9. Usah Diturut Kata Hati - Data
10. Hilang Dalam Ramai
11. Ku Simpan Rindu
12. Never Be Replaced
13. Pernah - Ferhad
14. Perpisahan Teasing -KRU
15. Laguku Untukmu - Hasnol
16. Dalam Kenangan - Exists
17. Unsaid Things -
18. Andainya Perpisah Terjadi.
``Syasya-
1st CD For Dearest Wawal.
1. Gone So Young - Amber Pacific
2. I Miss You - Blink 182
3. Letters To You - Finch
4. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
5. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
6. We Belong together.
8. Lovers & Liars
9. Promise
10. Far Away
11. Memory
12. P.s I Love You - The All American Rejects
13. Nyanyian Rindu Buat Kekasih - Data
14. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
15. Nadia
16. Sayang- KRU
17. Ku Menganis Kehilangamu
18. Mengusung Rindu
19. I`ll Be There For You - Green Day
20. Truly Madly Deeply - Pisto
``Syasya-
3rd CD For Dearest Wawal-
1. The Way We Used To - A Cutthroat Kiss
2. Ku Bertanya - Adams
3. Ku Bertanya - Adams
4. Jangan Pisahkan
5. Mengapa Perpisahan Yang Kau Pinta.
6. I`ll Be There for You - GreenDay7.
8. Gurgurnya Bunga Cinta
9. Sincerely I swear
10. The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez
11. Akulah Kekasihmu - AXL
12. Rindu Serindu Rindunya
13. Meraung
14. Sejarah Cinta Kita
15. Ku Menangis Kehilanganmu
16. I Miss You - Simple Plan
17. Say Im Sorry -
18. Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge
19. If You Were Mine - Marcos Hernandez
20. Be Without You - Mary J Blinge
``Syasya-
2nd CD For Dearest Wawal.-
1. Always You - Amber Pacific
2. Bizarre Love Triangle
3. Note To Self - From First To Last
4. All My Life
5. Ku Doa Agar Kau Bahagia - Arrow
6. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
8. Terima Kasih - Lestari
9. Usah Diturut Kata Hati - Data
10. Hilang Dalam Ramai
11. Ku Simpan Rindu
12. Never Be Replaced
13. Pernah - Ferhad
14. Perpisahan Teasing -KRU
15. Laguku Untukmu - Hasnol
16. Dalam Kenangan - Exists
17. Unsaid Things -
18. Andainya Perpisah Terjadi.
``Syasya-
1st CD For Dearest Wawal.
1. Gone So Young - Amber Pacific
2. I Miss You - Blink 182
3. Letters To You - Finch
4. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
5. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
6. We Belong together.
8. Lovers & Liars
9. Promise
10. Far Away
11. Memory
12. P.s I Love You - The All American Rejects
13. Nyanyian Rindu Buat Kekasih - Data
14. Airmata Saksi Cintaku - Lestari
15. Nadia
16. Sayang- KRU
17. Ku Menganis Kehilangamu
18. Mengusung Rindu
19. I`ll Be There For You - Green Day
20. Truly Madly Deeply - Pisto
``Syasya-
Ouh well. What can i sae. So Saturdae was my Cross-country. Im a lil upset. Cause i didnt win fer the individual placing. Yeah. Was dissapointed. Well. It`s over. Firstly. Congrats to faddie fer getting the eleventh position. Im proud of eu my dear. And to shaz too. I noe eu are waiting fer the house rite? Actually me too. LOL. So we won the champion house fer the B division. Wee. ((= At least. Yeah. Its so tiring okay to run that far. Thx pple fer that motivation but well i guess i lost that motivation pillar. The one i needed most. No other than. Mamat Awal. ))= It`s okay i will make it somedae w/o him. I try.
So mamat awal did called me todae. Yeah suprised. We talked. There`s an equal amount of fun or sadness while we`re otp. But well. He did call. And im glad fer that. And he admitted that he did messaged paria few daez back. Grr. Paria is realli sucking my blood sometyms. Hallo bitch? Eu have got a guy. So stop flirting alrite. Yea. Dada am jealous. Ure right mamat awal. We have 1 heart and 1 'jiwa.' Though we are not together. We do feel sth fer each other. And jealousy, missingNESS are 1 of those evidence. Well. Yeah. I do have high ego. So i admitted i did miss him too. Hell lots. Anw. Mamat wawal plannned to take his car lisence with dada. Wee. But well. Remember his words=wanton. Cant believe it until it comes true. So shall wait and see. Anw. He wants to go out with me tml. Yeye. Yea. We`re going City Hall maybe. Yes. I hup we hav fun together. I miss those tym wen i was with him. And i swear i wun tell my bf about tis outing. Hell no.
So. I read Paria`s blog. And i guess that she is an attention-seeking. Fcuking Bitch. What an emo kid are eu. How stopid are eu to slit ur writs. But ure smart cause u do it slightly above ur wrists. And fer ur actions, u gain lots of attention and sympathy from people. Eww. Stop pretending mama. Hypocrites.Well. Tt`s eu baby. And paria. I guess
eu realli like to play hide-and-seek with the guys that i am intoIn the past, u go gaga over Mamat Awal. And now. U`re super close with my bf. Can i label eu a bitch fer that. Ur kikilala is realli a bitch cause u cant stand kewt guys huh. I noe eu fer that. I admit that my bf does not have the criteria fer what i look in a guy. Neither hes super cute fer me. I mean he`s okay. Not fer me to go gaga over. Unlike eu pple. Obviously im supper jealous. Imagine.
the most huh?
Ur bf sends her fren home. And he`s much more closerFucker. And haloo. My bf doesnt send me home after every meet-ups. No he dont. Onli once. On our very FIRST date. And thats it. But he did send paria home. And according to her bloody blog. Mouth like a fcuking magazine. My bf was the one who offered to send her home.
with her rather than with eu.
And to my dearest bf. I am jealous. Yeah i am. But well go away. Im fine without eu. U are still immature with these. And i just wan eu to change, I mean. Im better off with with Mamat Wawal. Yeah it`s diff wen im with him. But well. I cant compare rite.
So. Raihan did confess to me about his feelings. According to him it happened two daes back. I mean. He`s nice. But i cant take him as my boi. Hes swit too. He`s soo gentleman. Yeah. He is. And he can control his smoking habits. And i so loike guys hu do not smoke. Got limits are sei. And raihan. I dont want to lose our frenship laa. But one dae i noe we will. I hoe we wun though.
Okay im done with blogging. ANd i hope that faddie will get well soon. Take care. Till den. And im jealous laa sei.
The END.
Dada.Sweets.
